24 Apr 2014
Tags: blog, child, grief, loss, motherhood, tragedy, winter park, Writing
The unimaginable happened just down the street from my childhood home. A tragedy that replays in my mind. I don’t know the family nor have I met their daughter who was ripped from their lives so unexpectedly. Yet I mourn for this family, whose beautiful girl named Lily died from the Kindercare tragedy in Winter Park. I could detail the previous criminal record of the man who killed this child, but I would rather give light to the child, who deserves to be remembered and should be alive.
As a mom of a 2 1/2 year old, this tragedy really struck me, more than most others I have seen on the television. I find myself with chills and tears as I pass the Kindercare, down the street from where I had the happiest childhood memories. It really shook me up and put things into perspective. Life is about holding your child, savoring every precious moment and knowing that it can be taken away at any moment. So if you know that, if that is a reality, then what would you do different, what would you keep the same?
As a working mother, who drops her daugher off at preschool; I have many of the same fears that mother’s have when leaving their child in someone else’s care. Will my child be safe? Will my child be loved? (among many others) And the scary part is that this child, Lily, who died suddenly was loved and she was safe from what I know (in the media). Yet the reality is that no one could have predicted that a car would come careening through the building, killing an innocent girl and injuring many other children and staff member. it may not be likely to happen to you and your child, but knowing that life can take such an ugly, turn; what would you change or keep the same in your day to day?
I’m holding our daughter tighter and tighter. I’m praying for the families involved with this tragedy. And I am truly thinking this last question over and over again.
23 Mar 2014
in blogger, career, child, gratitude, health, Life, Mother, Parenting, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: baby, Blogger, entrepreneur, family, gratitude, mom, momma, mommapreneur, mommapreneurship, mother, motherhood, Writing
I want to hear from the mommapreneur’s out there. How do you DO it? What is it like being a mom and an entrepreneur? What are the highs, lows and the in-between, or what I call the “tweeners” of your experience?
I feel like we can all learn from one another’s experience, so lets keep sharing.
The highs for me today include quality time with my little love bug..which included playing “Snow White” dress up and pretend play. Also I love when our girl says “Yes, mommy..okay.” Especially since the word YES, is a rarity at this age. Mostly, I hear her saying” No” or “All by myself.” Don’t get me wrong, I am all about fostering independence, but a “Yes” every once in a while, is music to my ears.
The “Tweener” moments include the endless clean-up around the house, and my creative mind racing with ideas; while my practical mind is saying ” woah, slow it down. Patience.” There are more ideas than time to do it, so it seems.
The “Lows” would include getting over a really annoying, ugly virus that pretty much swiped me out this week. Body is recovering yet still feels weak. We passed around this bug for two weeks, back and forth. Thankful our little love bug is healthy!
Grateful for the highs, the lows and the tweeners. That’s what being a mommapreneur is all about. For the newbies, welcome to Mommapreneurship.
Live. Love. Create
29 Mar 2013
in Baby, blogger, child, gratitude, inspiration, Life, lyrics, Mother, Parenting, poetry, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: baby, endless, love, mindfulness, mommy, motherhood, poem, poetry, unconditional, winter park, Writing
*This poem is dedicated to Olivia Daisy. She is my cheerful, creative, sweet, intuitive and strong-willed 18 month old baby girl. I love you cupcake.
I never knew
Just how much
You would mean to me.
How your eyes
Would touch a deep place
In my soul.
A place that I didn’t know existed.
I never knew
That when I looked at you,
The world would stand still.
That time wouldn’t matter.
That nothing mattered but you.
I never knew that I could love someone
That I would do anything for you.
I never knew that you would steal my heart
With one look
Your first word
Your first walk
Your first kiss
Your first hug
Your first goodbye
Your first hello
I never knew,
Love could be this endless.
Now I know.
09 Mar 2013
in blogger, career, gratitude, healing, health, inspiration, Life, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: baby, Blogger, cold, ear infection, health, lyrics, motherhood, sick, winter park, writer
Not much to say about Day 60. Why? Because I survived through another day of being sick. Last night I checked into an urgent care clinic for what I thought was the Flu. But thankfully, it turned out to be a bad cold and ear infection. Still I felt miserable. There were a few things/people who deserve honorable mention for their support.
A special thanks to my mom, dad, Art (my husband), Olivia (daughter) and to Glee.
GLEE (the show) really helped me survive while being sick. I was able to catch up on a few episodes and I’m always inspired by this show to continue shooting for the moon (my dreams). And of course a special thanks to my sisters and friends for your text messages which rooted for me to recover.
Day 60 marks my goal for 60 posts, in sixty days. Overall I have 111 posts (my lucky number “11”). I’m excited about this journey because I am creating the life I have always dreamed of, except now I am actually putting my thoughts into action. So from here on out, I will only be posting blogs about a personal journey of becoming the artist I always imagined. We are all children at heart. And now I am talking directly to you, fellow blogger and/or viewer. You can tap into your “element” and bring your inner child to life. Do what you love to do! Thanks for supporting and following me on this journey.
06 Mar 2013
in Baby, gratitude, health, Life, Mother, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: baby, Blogger, florida, gratitude, health, mommy, motherhood, Science Center, sore throat, winter park
It was not the average Tuesday. Why? Because I made the decision to change-up the routine this week. I took Olivia to Science Center this morning after her doctor’s appointment. Doctor said she is one healthy girl, thank goodness! We went to the Science Center afterwards to celebrate. Liv enjoyed playing with musical instruments, running around in a mysterious tunnel, shouting “baby” to each baby that passed by and eating a cookie. I tried to give Liv bites of our veggie sub but she wanted nothing to do with it. The exception was eating tomatoes from the sub. And of course, she always enjoys a yummy cookie.
The day was filled with fun for Liv. I am trying to get over what appears to be an allergic reaction to cold weather. Every time its cold, my allergies kick in alerting my throat to turn red. However, by mid day, I was really hurting (my throat that is) and decided to just take it easy. The Science Center tired us both out! I’m grateful for another beautiful day even when I feel this way. Thanks to tea, gargling, rest, and medicine; I am on the mend.
Not much more to say today. Have a great tomorrow!
23 Feb 2013
in Baby, blogger, career, inspiration, Life, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: awareness, baby, blog happiness, Blogger, blogger hate, blogging, child, clarity, expectations, fans, love, mindful, momma, mommy, motherhood, poem, poetry
“It’s not the broken dream that breaks us, it’s the ones we didn’t dare to dream” Glee
Recently I had a blogger send me “blogger hate”. LOL, I am just kidding. Blogger hate is really blogger love because it is helping me grow as a blogging artist. An unidentified blogger emailed me to let me know she is disappointed with my recent posts. She said “Hey, you used to write wonderful, but the last several posts have been kinda boring? I miss your super writings. Past several posts are just a little out of track! “
But you know what? I agree with her. I promised myself I’d post daily for sixty days. It is difficult to write meaningful compositions daily. I always want to write from the heart. Usually I write about latest highlights for the day. But there are days when the highlights are few and life is just the usual. On those days, I just don’t want to bore you. Generally I will say to the reader, “okay well goodnight, that is all I have.” I will continue to post for sixty days. However, after that I will only be posting my latest artistic creations. I have always believed that it is “quality not quantity” that matters in life. I apply this principle to most everything I do. After sixty days, if I don’t have much to say, I just won’t say it. But I will post anything inspired by the arts and my latest artistic pursuits.
So sorry dear blogger, who was disappointed in my recent posts. I can’t please everyone but your thoughts did not go unrecognized. And what you said was similar to how I was feeling.
Yesterday (Day 46) I was inspired by my daughter and wrote this:
Title: Hi Mama
“Hi Mama! “
The best two words I heard this morning
You cheered with innocence
My sleepy eyes quickly brightened.
Can you say that every morning?
Those two words really make my day
This smile stretches from ear to ear.
And it’s not the words you say.
I am the happiest mother
Because of your love.
“Hi Baby!” I love you.
19 Feb 2013
in Baby, blogger, career, gratitude, Life, lyrics, Mother, Singing, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: baby, cafe, co writing, gratitude, lyrics, mom, mommy, motherhood, power house, Singer, Singing, toys, Writing
Happy President’s Day! Today started off on the sluggish side. Why? Because I was recovering from a long weekend of fun and productivity.
Highlights for today:
* I continued the process of co-writing song with a new friend. It is a song we are both enthusiastic about. The song is looking better and better each time we co-write. (We will reveal song when finalized)
* My family and I enjoyed an afternoon relaxing in Central Park and lunch at the Power House Cafe in downtown Winter Park. I usually get the hummus and tabouli wrap but this time, I craved the falafel sandwich. It may sound odd, but I need ketchup with it. Power House Cafe has something for everyone. The smoothies are to die for. They are blended with natural, healthy ingredients without added sugar. I tried the chocolate Almond Smoothie. Yummy! Check out the menu at http://www.powerhousecafe.com/ . We even ran into previous neighbors. Olivia was over joyed about seeing her first crush. They hugged for what seemed to be five minutes, played ball and said “zoom zoom” to toy trucks.
* Right before bed, I do the usual routine. I pick up my daughter’s toys off the living room floor, placing them in the appropriate place. Usually I do this, halfway asleep, ready for bed. But this night was different. Yes I was still sleepy however, I couldn’t help but feel overwhelmed with love, joy and gratitude for doing this simple act. In that moment, I felt so proud to be a mom to Olivia Daisy. I thought “This is the joy of being a mom.” It’s not exciting to pick up toys. But these toys are the ones my daughter loves and plays with. She is learning and growing daily. In that moment I felt so lucky and proud of her and this role as mom.
18 Feb 2013
in audition, blogger, child, Life, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: actor, audition, baby, bradley cooper, career, film, motherhood, playbook, silver linings, Singer, songwriting, Writing
Today was a VERY cold day in Florida. I am so confused by Florida weather. One day rainy, one day freezing, another day hot and then back to freaking COLD. You’d think I would be use to it, since I am a native to Florida, but I am not. Oh well. I could put a positive spin on this and say that the unpredictable weather always keeps us guessing. As if the weather is an exciting surprise. But the truth is, I am not amused. Mostly, because my wardrobe goes in and out of boxes regularly, not knowing what to expect next.
Okay lets see, highlights for today.
* Music highlight: Worked more on latest song, in which I am co writing. Very excited about this!! I will be meeting up with co writer tomorrow evening to continue our edits. Can’t wait!
* I went to an audition for a Full Sail movie. The only catch is NO ONE WAS THERE. So there was no audition for me. I am still puzzled by this. But I did leave the casting department a message. I will try again.
* Enjoyed a belated, but not forgotten, Valentines day dinner and movie with my husband. We watched a movie called ” Silver Linings Playbook” directed by David O. Russell. One of my favorite actors is Bradley Cooper (stars in this film) . Our dinner at Thai Singh was fantastic. “Late night noodles” has always been our favorite dish there. Delicious!!! (Thanks for babysitting mom and dad!)
Very sleepy so goodnight…
17 Feb 2013
in blogger, Life, Mother, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: artist, comedy, creative, family, Garage Sale, law of attraction, motherhood, movie, secret, Singer, Songwriter, the secret
Yes, I know. My posts lately have been a day (or two) late. Better late than never. I have vowed to write a post every day for sixty days. The post below is for yesterday, Day 40!
What a beautiful Winter Park day~
Forecast: Clear skies, windy and cool
Highlights for today:
* We had a rocking’ family garage sale! It was fun and the entrepreneur side of myself loved to sell, sell, sell.
I enjoyed time with my family while selling. And I even bought a few things at our own garage sale. Ha ha
* Spending quality time with family and watching our favorite shows. I watched “The Secret” on Netflix and this sparked my creativity. The law of attraction is truly a powerful tool in our lives.
Well that’s all folks. Saturday was uneventful except for the garage sale. Wish I had more to report. But then again, it was a day to relax and recover from a very fast paced week.