Embrace Life’s Complexity

It’s been awhile since writing on my blog.  Missed you!  I missed talking to people I know and those I don’t know.  Something about writing is very cathartic.

Anyways, I needed to get some things straightened out so I took a momentary reprieve from discussing music and acting.  The complexity of life did not allow for me  to solely focus on music and acting.  And that is okay.

I have learned that I can have my “cake and eat it too.”  Except, the cake may get dry at times and the ice cream may melt and re-freeze.  That is life.  So I will continue forward on this journey being a forever optimist and continuing to tackle the unexpected.

I’m excited to announce that my friend and I are recording our co-write this weekend.  We are looking forward to sharing the demo soon.  The other exciting news is that I got a job doing something I am truly passionate about.

What is the job you ask?  Advocating and supporting people with various disabilities.  I had difficulty typing the word “disability” as I find the word to be disabling.  I would rather say helping people with various emotional, behavioral and physical challenges.  It seems more empowering this way.  Yet, society has emphasized “disabilities”.  What I have to say to you Society…is this.    Watch out because I am planning to support a team in changing it up.

Live. Love. Create.

Kimberly

The Unexpected Audition

Sometimes, well most of the time, we receive last-minute audition notices as actors.  Our agents call us as soon as they hear of a relevant audition.  Don’t hate!  It’s not their fault.  It’s just the way the industry works.  You are going about your day and then BOOM!  Just like that, you get a phone call asking your availability in auditioning for a role.

That phone call occurred for me yesterday.  The calls are coming more rapidly these days.  I received a call asking if I was available before 5 pm yesterday to arrive as a “nurse” for a live medical convention.  When you get these unexpected, “day of” calls, there is always a moment of shock. This is normally followed by excitement, fear, more excitement and a rush of adrenaline.

I made a vow at the start of 2013, that I would not turn any opportunity down as long as I am available.  So I kindly thanked my agent and quickly was called into action.  Outfit picked out. Check. Headshots printed. Check.  Babysitting for my daughter, thanks mom! Check.  Make-up. Check. Hair. Check.

That’s basically what it looks like when prepping for the unexpected audition.   And of course it helps to have a gracious, kind neighbor who lended me her nurse scrubs and a stethoscope.

What I have learned about the unexpected audition is this:

Always be prepared in advance.  This means have extra headshots printed, bar code printed, clothing selections in mind.

Prep, don’t plan your lines or your perspective on the role.

If you receive lines, do your best to at least memorize the first line or two.

The unexpected audition can become expected with your preparation in advance.

Live. Love. Create.

Kimberly

Hope, Resiliency and a brief update

Update:  This week I went to an audition for Disney.  It was an audition for print job (internet usage).

Very exciting opportunity!  The audition was literally ten seconds long.  Well, it was “Ten Mississippi’s” if you counted slowly.  This may be surprising to some of you newbie auditioner’s.  But every audition is different.  I walked in and there was a short line that had a high turnover rate.  I asked the gentleman in front of me if I could borrow his phone.  Why? Because we were informed to use our phone in one of the pictures taken of us.  And well, I left my cell in the car.  Thankfully, this kind actor gave me his Iphone.

It was my turn.  I walked up.  Flashed a smile and a hello.  I was asked to smile at camera (picture taken).  Then I was asked to look at camera and lastly, to laugh at camera.  I’m not complaining because it was an easy process.

So I thought I’d start out with an update.  And now I’d like to share my thoughts about “Hope and Resilience” by writing a short poem.

HOPE AND RESILIENCE

Re-Silence me.

Take me to a land

Of Hope and dreams.

For here I will stay.

Hope is the leader

And resilience the follower.

Without hope,

There is no resilience.

Hope for a better today

And if the better doesn’t come

Remember resilience

You can choose your day

You can choose your way

You can have HOPE again.

For the love of Theater!

I decided to write a post about Theater offered in Central Florida.

There is so many wonderful plays along with talented actors, singers and dancers in our hometown!

The Winter Park Playhouse is a 501(c)(3) non-profit, professional musical theatre dedicated to producing musical comedies, revues and cabarets with live musicians. It is associated with Actors’ Equity Association (the national union of actors and stage managers), The Playhouse maintains high standards of artistic integrity and proudly employs professional actors, musicians, and technicians.

http://www.winterparkplayhouse.org/

Breakthrough Theatre of Winter Park:  A non-Equity, intimate black box, community theatre that encourages self-expression through dance, music, and theater.

http://www.breakthroughtheatre.com/

The Orlando Shakespeare Theater in Partnership with UCF, produces bold professional theater, develops new plays, and provides innovative educational experiences that enrich our community.  The theater’s mission is to be a nationally recognized destination theater offering productions and education year round for all audiences.

http://www.orlandoshakes.org/

The REP (Orlando Repertory Theater) is a professional Theatre for Young Audiences (TYA) in partnership with UCF, Orlando Repertory Theatre (The REP) promises to bring outstanding professional theatre to Central Florida based on classic and contemporary children’s literature.

http://www.orlandorep.com/about-us/

Mad Cow Theater is one of Orlando’s most respected professional theatre companies.  At this theater you will find compelling works of theatre for a wide-range of audiences, with a passion for both classic and contemporary plays and musicals representing the best of American and World literature.

http://www.madcowtheatre.com/

The Garden Theatre is a not-for-profit community organization committed to enriching, engaging, and entertaining through creative experiences. The theatre showcases an atmospheric theatre in a Mediterranean Revival style venue.  Here you will find live plays, concerts, movies and more to the residents of and visitors to the city of Winter Garden.

http://www.gardentheatre.org/

Hope you learned something and enjoyed the list..now go watch a show for the love of Theater!

Live. Love. Create.

Kimberly

Film Acting, more exciting than I imagined!

Most of my prior experience in Acting included commercials and theater.  Although I truly enjoy acting in commercials and there is nothing quite like the adrenaline rush that occurs during a theatrical performance; I longed to discover film acting.  Well, this summer, Film acting was discovered.  I took at class called CORE Film at Art Sake Studio.  Here I learned basic principles of film acting and how to “meisner”.   Since past February, I increased the number of auditions I went out for.  I landed a few gigs along the way but mostly I auditioned.  This is typical for any actor who is striving to “make it” in the business.

But one thing I discovered along the journey.  I changed the way I viewed myself as an actor.  Many artists will tell you they feel “fake” like they are not really professional actors/models/dancers/singers etc..  That is because society teaches us that we are only “good enough” when we “make it.”  It dawned on me almost a year ago that I needed to see myself as having already “made it.”  I truly believed that doors would open if I  (1.) took myself more seriously, as a professional actor/singer/writer.  and (2.) imagined and acted as if I have already made it.

I can say that doors are opening, slowly but at least they are opening now.  In a previous blog, I discussed my excitement about local audition as News Anchor in “King’s Gambit”, a feature film.  My latest update is that I booked a role as a News Anchor in this film.  We are set to begin shooting film in August.  I’m thrilled to be a working actor and to have an opportunity to act with a great cast and crew!  Let the fun continue…

Live. Love. Create.

Kimberly

What a week!

This week began with the usual.  And then there was Film Class at Art Sake Studio.  This CORE film class opens up the chakras and assists in bringing great truth to acting.  It unleashes vulnerability and allows for people to feel safe in sharing and exploring various emotions.  This week we continued with Meisner Film games and were fortunate to attend a workshop by  Christy Poggi      on empathy.  Since I am a LMHC (Licensed Mental Health Counselor); I must admit that at first, I wasn’t sure what more I could learn about empathy.  Empathy training was a large part of my Master’s program.  However; empathy applied to Film Acting is a very different ball game.  As a counselor we empathize with clients; however, as a film actor we empathize with the character while being truthful to our own vulnerabilities.  As a counselor we are taught boundaries and to stay focused on client, often disregarding our own emotional impulse.  This occurs for good reason in therapy.  However; in film acting, boundaries are loose for good reason.  We are encouraged to take risks with ourselves and actors during scenework.  Speaking of risks, leads me to the word FEAR.

I am scared to death (a bit dramatic, yes) of ACTING.  I have always been afraid of it yet secretly wanted to play the leading lady on General Hospital.  Also, I would secretly want to be Sandra Bullock in all of the romantic comedies.  You see, we all have “inner critics” that scream at us right when we feel we can do something.  The inner critic often says ” it’s too hard”, ” you aren’t good enough”, “that’s impossible”, “You aren’t smart enough.” etc.   But these barriers are imaginary and created, without giving us as a chance to prove the inner critic wrong.  I’m thankful to mentors that have told me to not listen to this chatter.  Yet, I go into the unknown and I am at times scared ______.   You get the idea and can fill in the  blank.  I feel empowered speaking the truth and this will free me.  There is a quote about fear from “The Artist Way” by Julia Cameron.

” It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare; it is because we do not dare that they are difficult.”  Seneca

My updates for this week:  I was cast in an Infomercial for Hand Hygiene at Dr. P. Phillips Hospital.  Blue Sky Production crew based out of Nashville were wonderful folks to work with.  They were professional and had a sense of humor, which created ease on the set.  It was a long day but well worth it.  I actually cried “real tears” during one scene with a young boy (who played my child).  I credit my acting class at Art Sake for giving me tools to illicit tears on film.  It helped for me to do some breathing exercises, to breath into the emotion.  What I am learning is this; Although I fear acting, I’m growing more confident and I attribute this to taking risks.  And that’s a wrap!

Enjoy your weekend!

Live. Love. Create.

Kimberly

One Moment at a Time

You are probably singing right now…”One moment in time….” but I seriously meant ” One Moment at a Time” as post title.  Why? Because all it takes is one moment in time to realize our true potential.  This Tuesday marked the 3rd week of Core Film Class at Art Sake’s Studio.  I have been enjoying the heck out of this class.  I am learning to trust my impulses in acting and to be more “in the moment”.

This week I am realizing that doors continue to open.  I feel there is limitless possibilities and potential in our world.  Sometimes the doors that open are right in front of our eyes, and we fail to notice for one reason or another.  So that is where “mindfulness” comes in.  When I slow my mind down and focus on the emotions, what is bubbling up under the surface; the answers begin to appear. So I encourage you to do the same.  Go to Google and click on “Guided Imagery”, meditations or take a local yoga class.  It really does make a significant different on your day while also bringing clarity to what is bubbling up.

This week was exciting!  Stay tuned, as my friend Georgia and I just began pre production on our co-write.  We will be posting our new song this summer.  Also, I will be an extra in a local Indie film called ” Hope for Harmony” to be taped this upcoming week.

Not much more to say, as its Friday “Eve”.  We are all tired, right?  Time to renew, repair and reboot for the next week.

Live. Love. Create.

Kimberly

A Week’s Journey

This week was a journey.  It was a journey filled with many emotions.  Let’s just cut to the chase, shall we?  So what is the latest on my artistic pursuit of creative rebellion?  Well, lets see I started film class last week at Art Sake Studio.  Check it out at http://www.art-sake.com/art-sake.com/Home.html.  The class rocks and I already feel like I am learning more than I could imagine from one class.  The class is inspired by one of my favorite author’s Julia Cameron (author of book ” The Artist Way”).  This class encourages its patrons to attend as many auditions as possible in order to unleash the inner artist and to encourage personal growth.  So this Saturday, I went to Full Sail University’s open casting call for local films.  I was expecting to audition for two movies.  However; when I arrived there was a long table set up with about six creative projects including video game auditions.  There was a moment of panic followed by sheer excitement.  I went down the aisle and signed up for each casting available.  There I sat with five clipboards filled with information about each casting, followed by sides.  “Sides”  refers to the specific set of lines from the script of an acting project that your child (or you) must learn prior to an audition.  It took some time to organize all the paperwork, sign the releases and remember which “Sides” belonged to the appropriate paperwork.  I thought,  “If I can figure out how to organize this mess, it’s half the battle.”

I highly recommend auditioning at Full Sail.  The staff was very friendly and the casting directors were also friendly, approachable, and eager to get the best shot.  The directors were professional and provided feedback.  Check out Full Sail’s site at http://www.myspace.com/fullsailcasting.  I was there from 3 pm until 6:30 pm auditioning for five projects.  It was a long wait but worth it.  Why? Because I left with increased confidence.  I felt great about the performances I gave and the courage it took to show up.  So I encourage you to do the same.  Find the courage within to do something you’ve always wanted to do and do it, without question.

Film business has taken the driver’s seat this week.  So last night I changed it up by meeting with a friend and co-writer to solidify our song and to make arrangements to record in the upcoming week.  Cannot wait to share with you!  Mostly, I am feeling very grateful for the support of my husband and family which allows me to go on these auditions.  Our daughter Olivia Daisy always inspires and her smile pushes me onward.

It’s been a week’s journey.  It feels like this is really happening.  That I am becoming the artist I always wanted to be.

Live. Love. Create.

Kimberly

Day 49

Today was a stellar day! I had an audition today for “Liberte Yogurt” Commercial.  Right now I am in Tampa, Florida at local Starbucks waiting to visit with my girlfriend.  The drive wasn’t so bad because I listened to an audio CD in the called “Super Brain: Unleashing the Explosive Power of Your Mind to Maximize Health, Happiness, and Spiritual Well-Being.” by Rudolph E. Tanzi, Deepak Chopra.  I must admit that after the first half of this CD, I questioned if I could continue listening to a book on CD.  Why?  Because music usually perks me up on long rides and I was already recouping from lack of sleep (previous night).  However, the author kept me tuned in detailing innovative health information regarding the unlimited potential of our brains.  One point that was discussed repetitively was that we have power over our brains.  Our brains do not control us unless we allow it to do so.  In other words, we can all tap into unlimited potential and heal our mind, bodies and soul.

The only thing that is missing right now is Olivia. We played this morning before she went to school. However, it never seems enough as I love her to pieces.  And of course any couples time (date nights) we can get, we take.  We cherish each and every moment we spend together as a couple and as a family.  I’m feeling really grateful for family and for opportunities that continue to arise.  This career transition happened for a reason.  I’m very excited of what is ahead!

Be Well,

Kimberly

Day 43

The day after yesterday.  I just felt like saying that, not sure why.  Today is day 43 and I am going strong!  I’m feeling ambitious about creating the life I desire.  Life is good.

Highlights for today:

* I managed to cook three meals this morning while watching my baby girl play.  Not sure how it happened but it did.  I prefer to cook several meals at once, freezing a few; rather than cooking each day.

* Olivia was a hands full today.  She kept me guessing (literally).  All day I asked her “What’s wrong?”, “What do you want?” “Tell mommy, what do you want?” “Do you want this?”  “Do you want that?”

And Olivia’s response:  No (in the sweetest voice) followed by a sobbing cry (not so sweet).  It didn’t seem possible to appease her today.  Poor baby, she just wants to communicate and is so frustrated with me for not understanding her.

* I managed to go clothes/shoe shopping for Olivia this afternoon.  This was no small feat.  And man, were they right about that saying “It takes a village to raise a child.”  I was wishing a village came with me shopping today.  Liv gave me a run for my money this afternoon.  But mommy kept her cool, gave Liv many kisses and managed to complete the shopping trip.  What helped?  Snacks, smiles, hugs, toys (and when I say toys, that means anything that is kid friendly, even a cup or straw will do).

Today was all about productivity because tomorrow is my “artist date”.  Artist date is just a fancy word that means we “take ourselves on a date by doing what we love, creating art”.  So tommorow after my daughter goes to school; I write music, sing and seek the latest auditions for acting.  Sometimes I will do something relaxing to invoke my creative spirit to come out and play.   There is a great author named Julia Cameron who wrote a series of books geared towards artists.  Check out her books at http://juliacameronlive.com/.

Be Well and goodnight,

Kimberly

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