22 Apr 2013
in blogger, co writing, gratitude, healing, Life, lyrics, music, psychology, Singing, spirituality, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: Blogger, chords, college park, confidence, fans, grateful, gratitude, guitar, inspiration, love, magic, mindfulness, open mic, quotes, rhonda byrne, Songwriter, songwriting, spirituality, success, Writing
The Magic has begun! If you did not read my previous blog, allow me to bring you up to date. I have been reading “The Magic” by Rhonda Byrnes. It is truly inspiring me to do more, be more, share more. I highly recommend this book, if you haven’t already figured that out. LOL. Anyways, I miss writing to you; my invisible blogger and fans.
So here is the latest on my artistic journey, in case you are wondering. I have been researching the top recording studios in Central Florida. So far I have narrowed my search to a select few. This week I will be touring facilities and making a decision about where to record the latest song (a co-write). Please stay tuned, as I will be posting this song. Also, I am preparing for next open Mic night in College Park. Although I am not a professional guitarist; I will be attempting to learn as many chords, and strum like crazy for the next two weeks in order to be ready for open Mic. I have vowed that if I do not feel confident in my amateur guitar skills; nothing will stop me from singing. So, I will be singing Acapella.
“Come hell or high-water” (I think that is how the saying goes; I will continue to push forward with my singing/acting and entrepreneurship. This journey has not been an easy one as I have been challenged by adversities. However, it is the resilience, determination and passion which I truly feel will lead me in best direction and create success along the way.
It is the journey not the final destination that really matters after all. I’m enjoying the small moments, the precious ones with our daughter Olivia and being grateful for this life. I’m truly grateful for you, my invisible readers. Although I cannot see you; I know you exist. Thanks for your comments and feedback.
Be Well and Give Gratitude,
26 Feb 2013
in Acting, audition, blogger, career, child, inspiration, Life, Mother, spirituality, Writing
Tags: acting, audition, baby, brain, child, commercial, deepak chopra, mindfulness, parenting, potential, Singing, super brain, tampa, Writing, yogurt
Today was a stellar day! I had an audition today for “Liberte Yogurt” Commercial. Right now I am in Tampa, Florida at local Starbucks waiting to visit with my girlfriend. The drive wasn’t so bad because I listened to an audio CD in the called “Super Brain: Unleashing the Explosive Power of Your Mind to Maximize Health, Happiness, and Spiritual Well-Being.” by Rudolph E. Tanzi, Deepak Chopra. I must admit that after the first half of this CD, I questioned if I could continue listening to a book on CD. Why? Because music usually perks me up on long rides and I was already recouping from lack of sleep (previous night). However, the author kept me tuned in detailing innovative health information regarding the unlimited potential of our brains. One point that was discussed repetitively was that we have power over our brains. Our brains do not control us unless we allow it to do so. In other words, we can all tap into unlimited potential and heal our mind, bodies and soul.
The only thing that is missing right now is Olivia. We played this morning before she went to school. However, it never seems enough as I love her to pieces. And of course any couples time (date nights) we can get, we take. We cherish each and every moment we spend together as a couple and as a family. I’m feeling really grateful for family and for opportunities that continue to arise. This career transition happened for a reason. I’m very excited of what is ahead!
19 Jan 2013
in Baby, career, child, Florida, gratitude, healing, Life, Mother, Orlando, Parenting, Singing, spirituality, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: actor, artist, family, joy, life, mindfulness, motherhood, Music, Singer, songwriting, spirituality, wellness, writer
Today is Day 11, my lucky number !!! What follows is a synopsis of my day. Our sweet baby girl has been under the weather since Wednesday evening. So mommy and daddy have been busy taking good care of her. Today I took Liv to our first appointment with a new pediatrician who is an MD but also skilled in Alternative Medicine. It is such a relief to find a pediatrician who believes in empowering families through prevention, education and support.
I visited my favorite business for skin care this evening. It is called The Sanctuary of Winter Park. The owner/founder is Usha Naran who is also a friend of mine. She is such a professional, kind and genuine individual. I admire her as a specialist in skin care and as a person. She specializes in facials, waxing and make up. Also there is a wonderful lady there named Maria who is very talented and is also a friend of mine. Maria provides many services including waxing and pedicure/manicure. I see Maria for eye brow waxing and always leave happy! Check out this peaceful Sanctuary that is well-known for skin care in Winter Park.
I could go on and on about my day, but don’t want to bore you today. First and foremost, today was about taking care of our bambina (spanish for “baby girl”). We also ran a few errands together. The process of organizing, decluttering and unpacking is taking longer than anticipated. Olivia keeps me laughing when life can be so serious.
I am beginning to truly miss lyric writing, acting, singing and dancing. Mostly I miss singing, and acting. I have the acting bug again! So I am hopeful that next week will be the last week of serious organization mode; so I can concentrate on acting/music again. I sing and write now but not to the extent of my soul’s purpose. There are many changes being made on a personal and professional note; which are preparing me for this next phase.
08 Jan 2013
in Baby, blogger, career, child, gratitude, healing, inspiration, Life, Orlando, Parenting, psychology, spirituality, therapy, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: artist, counseling, family, healing, health, life, motherhood, spirituality, writer, Writing
Today felt like day one of a life transition. As I have mentioned in previous blogs, my family and I moved from a home to a condo. The condo is located in my hometown, a city with serious charm: Winter Park, Florida. I feel in some ways I am being reborn. Not only did we move physically but there is something bigger going on here, for which time will reveal. I have moved literally to a new home but I am also in process of an emotional (mind-body-spirit) journey to capture my inner child, my inner strength.
I know what I need to do career wise. So now I am developing an action plan, checking one item at a time off the list. And now I am even more aware of the importance of relaxation, and being open to “no plan.” Sometimes the greatest joys come from “going with the flow, and trusting in the signs.” Also a visionary has no vision without rest and recuperation. Isn’t there a quote that says “Life is what happens when you are not watching.”?
Although weeks have passed since our actual move; we did not feel settled into our new place. There were many, many boxes to unpack, discard, etc… And we still have a room full of stuff, mostly paperwork to review and discard. Last night, was the first night our family (mommy, daddy, baby and two dogs) slept through the entire night. WOO HOO! My energy felt bountiful this morning as if I was being energized by Red Bull. The irony is that I have never drank a Red Bull nor do I have a desire to do so. This morning I was eager to do loads of laundry. That is not my usual. Olivia and I played in the park, danced to music, ate a popsicle together, and enjoyed giggling. It seems she is becoming more independent as I found time to check items off my to-do list. It was a productive and happy day.
Did I mention that I watched GLEE? I am inspired by most episodes of Glee. My daughter dances to the music and I continue to muster up creative ideas that swarm in my head. Who knew that Liv would dance to Britney Spears songs on GLEE? I took time out tonight to write and to reflect upon meaningful lyrics. It is very important to me to say what I really want/need to say in my songwriting. I vow to write lyrics, without fear of others perception of my lyrics. The lyrics will be truthful and heartfelt. I think many singers/songwriters sugar coat the writing in order to not offend others. That was my mistake as well. I wrote many lyrics that only scratched at the surface of my real feelings. It is time to really say I what I feel.
06 Jan 2013
in Baby, blogger, Coffee, Florida, gratitude, healing, Life, Mother, Parenting, spirituality, Writing
Tags: Anxiety, baby, Beach, Hammock, Happiness, Meditation, mindfulness, motherhood, Parenthood, peace, Tranquility, Yoga
This morning I decided to continue my quest for overall wellness. As a mom of a 16 month old baby girl, going on toddler; I am in need of some serious mommy R & R. So this morning my kind husband took Liv with him to visit his parents, while I was left with a few hours to recover from a night of wake-ups. Whenever I get a few hours to myself; I treasure each moment. It is really difficult to decide how best to use the time. In the past, any spare time I had, was to work on something, or to clean up. I rarely just relax. I am what some would call “type A”, a busy body, a go-getter. My mind is constantly on creative mode, scheming up new ideas, and setting personal and family goals. This multi-tasking, creative mind can be exhausting. Sometimes I just need a break from my own desire to create.
So as I began scheming over what my plan would be for this morning; I kept hearing my inner voice nudging me. It said ” the plan is no plan.” I quickly fought back with “There has got to be a plan, or a most effective way to use this time.” So I began filling out belated holiday greetings. After thirty minutes passed, I felt anxious to think of how I would spend the next hour. In my exhaustion, I began sipping the coffee more quickly. I hoped that the coffee would stimulate a creative idea, or awaken me to realize “the plan” for the morning. But it did not. So I made few phone calls and peered out the window of our hotel room.
Awhhh…The beauty and serenity of the beach. I decided in that moment to take a walk on the beach. My mind suddenly jumped to “What will you do while walking on the beach?” To which I replied, “Nothing.” Okay, I admit, I did bring my camera and cell phone (but only for emergencies). The camera was useful in capturing the beauty and mindfulness of the present moment(s).
The best part about the few hours was laying in a hammock, taking in the peaceful sound of birds chirping and hearing the ocean and wind chatter. I took long deep breaths and almost fell asleep. There were kids playing joyfully in the background. After leaving the hammock, I felt great inner peace and again realized the necessity of my continued search for increased health and wellness. Yoga, guided meditation and even a hammock calm a fast-paced mind.
03 Jan 2013
in blogger, career, healing, inspiration, Life, Mother, Orlando, psychology, spirituality, therapy, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: artist, family, health, joy, life, mindfulness, motherhood, peace, simplicity, spirituality, writer, Writing
It has been several weeks of packing, moving and unpacking, reloading…you get the picture. We just moved from a home to a condo. Some would say we are nuts. Others have said we are smart. I say we are happy. The packing and unloading part is a big pain; however, it is also cleansing. I write this post today about simplicity. It is euphoric to de-clutter our new living space. So I thought I’d google the word “Simplicity”. The definition online reads “the state or quality of being simple. Something which is easy to understand or explain is simple, in contrast to something complicated.” A life of simplicity would be less complicated.
Thus, I have begun asking myself questions about how I may simplify this life. The questions include, “Do I really need belts of all kinds? Do I really need another pair of jeans? Do I really want to store shirts I may end up wearing one day?” ”Is it important to keep different kitchen appliances, in the event that I may throw a party?” ”Do I really need to say yes again to another invite?” The answer to all of these questions is “NO!”
But when I reflected upon these questions further; I realize that I am materialistic to some degree. And what is wrong with having nice things? Nothing. But it is the quality not the quantity that matters. And do I really need to say yes to every invitation, event, idea etc. The answer again is “NO!” A simple life is not just about de-cluttering materials. It is also about wellness and “de cluttering one’s emotions.” It is time to clear the energy in my life to only positive and to get rid of stuff that is not needed. So I created several piles. Each pile has a specific destination which includes “Donations”, “Re Sell” and “Store.” Also I gave a few select items to individuals that came to mind.
It feels like a weight is lifting from my shoulders. There is increased happiness, good energy and freedom. The clearing of things from my life will only open up doors on my quest to shift into a new career and for inner peace.
04 Dec 2012
in Acting, career, gratitude, healing, inspiration, Life, lyrics, Mother, Orlando, psychology, Singing, spirituality, therapy, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: changes, diving, journey, life, Music, Singing, transitions, writer, Writing
Have you ever wanted something so badly, in your life, that you would do just about anything to get it? Well that is how I feel about singing, acting and writing. This is my life’s passion, my life’s work. I feel I have been following a calling to achieve these dreams since early childhood. Life has had its ups and downs. I have traveled in many exciting directions. But there is only one direction that continues to grab my attention. That’s right, I am about to not walk, not run, not jump…to DIVE IN.
I recently resigned from a position as Licensed Mental Health Counselor. I spent a few years growing as a therapist and supporting individuals and families with their life’s challenges. It dawned on me after several life changing experiences; that there is no better time than the present, to pursue my dream full-time. You see, I tried the 50/50 approach. I wanted to do “all” of what I enjoyed. I thought I could be a counselor, actor, singer, mom, wife all at the same time. What I discovered is that this does not work for me. Something had to give. The most important role is being a mom, wife, friend and of course, a friend to myself. I needed to practice better self-care.
I’d encourage my patients to practice better self-care and support them in pursuit of their highest good. However, I found myself questioning if I had done the same. Over the past few years, I have auditioned for commercials, sang for contests and submitted for roles. However, this was sporadic and time constrained. And so with that being said, I am choosing a new direction. It is time to DIVE IN!
From now on, this blog will chronicle my “diving in” to the unknown seas of the future. What I do know for sure is that I have a clear vision. What I don’t know is how this vision will come to fruition. I am letting go of a desire to know the outcome, to control the situation because I realize I can only surrender to a higher plan. Yes, it will be work on my part and I do believe in free will. But when you are doing work you love; it’s not really work. I realize that I will be doing a majority of the change making.
Buckle your seat belts, and come along for this journey I’m about to embark upon. It will begin here in Winter Park, Florida.
22 Nov 2012
in Baby, gratitude, healing, Life, Mother, Parenting, spirituality, thanksgiving, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: family, friends, gratitude, healing, health, mindfulness, thanksgiving
This thanksgiving is different from previous holidays. After going through a few life changing events and getting necessary “wake up” calls; I have immense gratitude for life. This day I am reflecting on how thankful I am for your support and for knowing you. You know who you are. It is the family member who says hello and checks in just because. It is the friend who listens without judgement. It is the co-worker who brightly smiles and waves hello. It is the receptionist who takes the time to ask how I am feeling. And I cannot forget how thankful I am for our baby girl Olivia Daisy. It is her unconditional positive regard for life that amazes me. Olivia’s innocence and enthusiasm are contagious. She is our “guppy”, a nickname we gave her after the first ultrasound. She appeared like a guppy with no formed legs or arms on the ultrasound. Now we call her “cupcake” and “stinky”. Oh how things change! I am truly thankful for the ups and downs that life has brought. Like an ocean wave, my confidence has ebbed and flowed. However, this Thanksgiving I am more alive, more aware than ever before. I am truly thankful for a fresh start, a new beginning, an awakening.
Many thanks to YOU. Wishing you and your family a very Happy Thanksgiving!
13 Nov 2012
in Baby, child, healing, inspiration, Life, Parenting, spirituality, Writing
Tags: healing, joy, motherhood, renewal, sand, sea, the ocean
There is something euphoric about being in the presence of the Ocean. The waves capture my spirit and the smell of salt brings back childhood memories. The giggles of my 14 month old daughter bring great joy! Her giggles resonates with the wind of the sea. It is the most beautiful sound of joy and peace I have ever known. Can you guess what I did this weekend? Yes, that is right. I spent quality, family time at the beach with our wide-eyed, curious baby girl. It was her first experience stepping in the sand, experiencing the roaring sound of the wind hitting the crashing waves. Our daughter studied the sand that quickly consumed her tiny toes. At first she reached for her feet, wiping the sand from her toes and then began wiping her hands. Then she noticed the ocean and began walking towards it.
Olivia had more interest in the ocean than the sand. I began to wonder why she is a Virgo and not an Aquarius like her mother. Aquarius is a lover of water. I guess a part of her is really Aquarian. Olivia lit up like Christmas, times a hundred, as she stepped into the brisk water. The cool water was bordering on “cold” water. It was a cool, windy day last Saturday. As a mommy, I was concerned and did not want to keep her in the ocean for long. I held Olivia’s hand and walked her through the waves. Liv wanted to run through the waves, falling down and giggling each time a tiny wave would pass her. I grabbed Olivia saying “Wasn’t that fun, its time for bye-bye”. Each time I tried to grab Olivia she kicked and hollered for the ocean, again her tiny voice singing in the wind. I allowed her to jump a few waves and then bundled her in a warm towel.
Her daddy and I tried to distract her with sand again. It worked momentarily until she saw the ocean. But because of the cool weather, we decided to form a mound of sand around her feet. This intrigued Olivia and she began to use a small sand utensil to dig herself out. We were relieved that she had some interest in the sand, a saving grace, to keep her from the water. It was awe-inspiring to see our child with pure joy and innocence enjoying the beauty of the ocean and beach. Truly, it is like relieving our youth. We spent so much time playing at the beach. Also, it reminded me to be mindful by savoring the small, but most meaningful moments in life.
Thanks for reading. I am wishing you to have joy in your heart and love for the small moments, that bring endless satisfaction.