23 Mar 2014
in blogger, career, child, gratitude, health, Life, Mother, Parenting, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: baby, Blogger, entrepreneur, family, gratitude, mom, momma, mommapreneur, mommapreneurship, mother, motherhood, Writing
I want to hear from the mommapreneur’s out there. How do you DO it? What is it like being a mom and an entrepreneur? What are the highs, lows and the in-between, or what I call the “tweeners” of your experience?
I feel like we can all learn from one another’s experience, so lets keep sharing.
The highs for me today include quality time with my little love bug..which included playing “Snow White” dress up and pretend play. Also I love when our girl says “Yes, mommy..okay.” Especially since the word YES, is a rarity at this age. Mostly, I hear her saying” No” or “All by myself.” Don’t get me wrong, I am all about fostering independence, but a “Yes” every once in a while, is music to my ears.
The “Tweener” moments include the endless clean-up around the house, and my creative mind racing with ideas; while my practical mind is saying ” woah, slow it down. Patience.” There are more ideas than time to do it, so it seems.
The “Lows” would include getting over a really annoying, ugly virus that pretty much swiped me out this week. Body is recovering yet still feels weak. We passed around this bug for two weeks, back and forth. Thankful our little love bug is healthy!
Grateful for the highs, the lows and the tweeners. That’s what being a mommapreneur is all about. For the newbies, welcome to Mommapreneurship.
Live. Love. Create
16 Mar 2014
in career, Life, Mother, Writing
Tags: balance, Blogger, childhood, disabilities, entrepreneur, exhaustion, harmony, mom, momma, preneur, self care, UCF, winter park, Writing
I’m feeling sleep deprived, yes. I feel like I need coffee but I know if I drink it, the sleep deprivation will only be masked. And then suddenly it will all hit me this afternoon. But I persist, despite the mommy fatigue. This journey is a wild, unpredictable, bumpy, exciting, infuriating, joyful, exhausting and peaceful experience. I am a “Momma-preneur”. I have always wanted two things: To be a Mommy and to be an Entrepreneur of creativity. It’s not easy and our family and sweet baby girl will always be number one. But I push forward.
I have been a “fighter” since childhood when I realized that I had a choice. I could continue to spell my letters backwards and sink into grade failure and social isolation OR I could thrive and learn a new way of existing in an academic environment. It took a lot of hard work but I adapted to my environment from early education all the way up to college. Yet this journey was everything I described in being a “Momma-preneur”: wild, unpredictable, bumpy, exciting, infuriating, joyful, exhausting and peaceful. And without family support, friends and an innate will to thrive; I know I wouldn’t be where I am now in life.
And so, I often asking myself, what more can I do to “refuel” and take care of myself so that I can be this Momma-preneur to the best of my ability. That is my focus this week. How can I find small moments, for meditation and total relaxation…I have been attending leadership meetings at UCF with amazing, strong, independent women. A common theme I have heard is that it is not “balance” one needs, it is “harmony.” And therefore, I continue to strive for harmony. A thought I would like to leave you with today is , ” If anything can go well, it will.” (one of my favorite quotes)
14 Nov 2013
in ballads, blogger, co writing, Life, lyrics, Mother, Singing, Writing
Tags: creative, family, ideas, Music, quirky, Singing, songwriting, Writing
Always uh, missing ya blog, missing blogger-ville..missing ya!
Always uh, missing ya, blog, blog, blogggggg
Until the next blog post, I will be thinking of ya!
Thinking of ya, thinking of ya
Until the next blog post, thinking of ya… la la la la
That is my quirky mindset tonight. It is a combination of my late night fatigue, combined with “Old MacDonald Had a Farm Song” that repeats in my head. Yes I have a two-year old, and no I don’t live on a farm. Just in case you were wondering. But seriously I do miss posting.
I was going through a transition period in my life and had to put things aside for a while.
But I am BACK and excited to share that I should have the demo of our new song posted this weekend, or next week at the latest. I am so proud of co-writer, friend and teacher Georgia! She is very talented and it’s been great working together. I have a few other creative projects cooking, so stay tuned!
Live. Love. Create
07 Jul 2013
in Acting, audition, blogger, film, Florida, gratitude, Life, Mother, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: audition, Blogger, family, feature film, film, friendship, kings gambit, orlando, Writing
These song lyrics are repeating in my head this morning…
“Oh, what a beautiful Mornin’
Oh, what a beautiful day.
I’ve got a beautiful feelin’
Everything’s goin’ my way.”
Yes and for good reason. I have a BIG audition today as news reporter for a feature film. After many hours committed to learning the lines; feeling the role and using positive psychology; I feel ready to go forward with confidence on my audition. Acting is not glamorous but it feels glamorous when you are prepared. There is nothing glamorous about spending countless hours prepping for auditions. However, the hard work pays off because of the feeling you get. It is this natural high of accomplishment. Artists will understand this.
I managed to balance fourth of July festivities with fun, family time at the beach and the memorization of lines. I’m finding immense joy in the simplicity that life brings, the small moments with my daughter as she feels the sand in her toes. These moments inspire me to also be mindful of the sand in my toes and to play in the ocean. It is time spent with family and friends that I am truly grateful for. I keep hearing that mantra: “Play hard, work hard!” What if we changed it to ” Play easy, work easy!” I like the sound of that because life is really a state of mind. If we have the mindset that work and play will be fun and a breeze; it is. Work is what we make of it.
Alright, well I could go on but I have dress rehearsal for my audition today. I always prepare my clothes in advance and then have a dress rehearsal as if I have already booked the part. Until next post, have a beautiful Sunday and do something you really enjoy today! For me its film acting and a long walk with the family.
Live. Love. Create
30 May 2013
in Acting, audition, blogger, career, co writing, healing, inspiration, lyrics, Mother, music, Singing, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: acting, actor, art, artist, arts sake, class, film, friends, guided imagery, hope for harmony, journey, mindfulness, monologue
You are probably singing right now…”One moment in time….” but I seriously meant ” One Moment at a Time” as post title. Why? Because all it takes is one moment in time to realize our true potential. This Tuesday marked the 3rd week of Core Film Class at Art Sake’s Studio. I have been enjoying the heck out of this class. I am learning to trust my impulses in acting and to be more “in the moment”.
This week I am realizing that doors continue to open. I feel there is limitless possibilities and potential in our world. Sometimes the doors that open are right in front of our eyes, and we fail to notice for one reason or another. So that is where “mindfulness” comes in. When I slow my mind down and focus on the emotions, what is bubbling up under the surface; the answers begin to appear. So I encourage you to do the same. Go to Google and click on “Guided Imagery”, meditations or take a local yoga class. It really does make a significant different on your day while also bringing clarity to what is bubbling up.
This week was exciting! Stay tuned, as my friend Georgia and I just began pre production on our co-write. We will be posting our new song this summer. Also, I will be an extra in a local Indie film called ” Hope for Harmony” to be taped this upcoming week.
Not much more to say, as its Friday “Eve”. We are all tired, right? Time to renew, repair and reboot for the next week.
Live. Love. Create.
20 May 2013
in Acting, audition, blogger, career, co writing, gratitude, inspiration, Life, Mother, movie, music, Singing, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: act, acting, art sake, artists way, audition, casting, co write, create, creative, film, filming, full sail, independent, julia cameron, lyricist, movie, side, Singing, studio, writer
This week was a journey. It was a journey filled with many emotions. Let’s just cut to the chase, shall we? So what is the latest on my artistic pursuit of creative rebellion? Well, lets see I started film class last week at Art Sake Studio. Check it out at http://www.art-sake.com/art-sake.com/Home.html. The class rocks and I already feel like I am learning more than I could imagine from one class. The class is inspired by one of my favorite author’s Julia Cameron (author of book ” The Artist Way”). This class encourages its patrons to attend as many auditions as possible in order to unleash the inner artist and to encourage personal growth. So this Saturday, I went to Full Sail University’s open casting call for local films. I was expecting to audition for two movies. However; when I arrived there was a long table set up with about six creative projects including video game auditions. There was a moment of panic followed by sheer excitement. I went down the aisle and signed up for each casting available. There I sat with five clipboards filled with information about each casting, followed by sides. “Sides” refers to the specific set of lines from the script of an acting project that your child (or you) must learn prior to an audition. It took some time to organize all the paperwork, sign the releases and remember which “Sides” belonged to the appropriate paperwork. I thought, “If I can figure out how to organize this mess, it’s half the battle.”
I highly recommend auditioning at Full Sail. The staff was very friendly and the casting directors were also friendly, approachable, and eager to get the best shot. The directors were professional and provided feedback. Check out Full Sail’s site at http://www.myspace.com/fullsailcasting. I was there from 3 pm until 6:30 pm auditioning for five projects. It was a long wait but worth it. Why? Because I left with increased confidence. I felt great about the performances I gave and the courage it took to show up. So I encourage you to do the same. Find the courage within to do something you’ve always wanted to do and do it, without question.
Film business has taken the driver’s seat this week. So last night I changed it up by meeting with a friend and co-writer to solidify our song and to make arrangements to record in the upcoming week. Cannot wait to share with you! Mostly, I am feeling very grateful for the support of my husband and family which allows me to go on these auditions. Our daughter Olivia Daisy always inspires and her smile pushes me onward.
It’s been a week’s journey. It feels like this is really happening. That I am becoming the artist I always wanted to be.
Live. Love. Create.
10 May 2013
in audition, Baby, blogger, career, child, gratitude, inspiration, Life, lyrics, Mother, music, print model, Singing, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: austins coffee, catalog, change, coffee shop, credo coffee, guitar, model, Music, scholastic book, Singer, Songwriter, unexpected
After my last blog, I was filled with excitement to sing at Credo Coffee shop. I had been rehearsing vocal and guitar for over a week in order to perform there for what would be my 2nd time. The guitar was becoming my friend and I let go of my grudge against it. You see the guitar and I have a “love/hate” relationship. But recently I decided to give it another try on my terms. So when my baby girl fell asleep and with my husband’s support; I practiced chords on guitar and strummed along to my original tunes. I felt fairly confident that I was ready to showcase my original songs, even if my guitar skills were not perfect. However, sometimes things happen for a reason. The weekend prior to open mic, the guitar was not tuned. I tried tuning it several times, using different tuning methods but was not successful. I was losing hope and wondered if the guitar was broken. But really I felt like the broken one because I was so disappointed. What I really wanted was the last two days (weekend) to rehearse. And well with a baby, various creative endeavors and life; it just didn’t happen. With that being said, I am glad it did not. And thankfully, the guitar was fixed. It turned out that only ONE STRING was out of tune. But due to limited time and my desire to perform at my best; I chose to sing at next open mic. I’m thinking about trying out Austin’s Coffee Shop next week. Sometimes I am too hard on myself. One missed open mic is nothing in grand scheme of life. The important thing is that I am playing the guitar and not giving up on this creative growth.
Sometimes the unexpected actually turns out to be a great thing! So after my disappointment, I set my mind on the next creative goals. And with a tuned guitar, I felt that opportunities were endless. Then I got a phone call from my agent. She wanted to submit me as print model for Scholastic Books catalog. I was excited and of course said “Yes!”. I booked the job and arrived at Scholastic Books on Thursday. It was such a positive experience and the team of artists, directors and photographer were professional. This is another experience that reaffirmed my love of entertainment field. I enjoy print modeling as much as acting and singing.
It just goes to show you that sometimes change is a GREAT thing and that unexpectancies can be GREAT. Here are some quotes that I stumbled upon when looking up “unexpectancies, change.”
“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” -Maria Robinson
“Today is the first day of the rest of your life.” -Anonymous
“All great changes are preceded by chaos.” -Deepak Chopra
“Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.” -C.S. Lewis
“Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” -Marilyn Monroe
“If what you’re doing is not your passion, you have nothing to lose.” Unknown
Be Well and have a fantastic weekend!
03 May 2013
in blogger, gratitude, inspiration, lyrics, Mother, music, musical, Singing, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: baby, Blogger, blogging, family, gratitude, guitar, hope, inspiration, lyrics, Music, positivity, Singing, teaching, thank you
This Monday I will be singing for the 2nd time after a long break (post baby). I’m excited and surprised myself recently when I picked up the guitar again (literally). I have a love/hate relationship with the guitar. It dates back to many guitar lessons, in which I didn’t feel I was learning the guitar in the way “I should”; as dictated by teachers. So I learn differently and needed the teacher’s “style” to adapt. Several of my music teachers were unwilling to find a method that worked for me, rigidly wanting to stick to their own style. So after a few attempts to privately train; I decided to teach myself. So far so good. I know a few guitar chords and can strum, so this is a start. Monday night, I will be singing original lyrics and strumming my guitar at a local coffee shop. It shall be fun!
Lately, I have been very inspired by consistently saying my “thank you’s” about everything in this life. I’m thankful for every bite of delicious food, the home I live in, the baby and family I have. Its being as grateful for the small things, small moments as I am for the bigger things and bigger moments. As I give more gratitude, I feel more positivity and it magnifies in expected and unexpected ways. That’s the best way I know how to describe the feeling.
Well keep on giving and stay tuned for my new original songs/lyrics to be posted.
30 Apr 2013
in blogger, career, healing, health, inspiration, Life, Mother, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: acceptance, daydreaming, dreams, gratitude, inspiration, janet jackson, mental health, mindfulness, quotes, rasheed ogunlaru, self acceptance, shannon alder
Lately the word “Acceptance” has been on my mind. I hardly feel like writing tonight as I am one busy mommy and entrepreneur these days. But I miss writing to you, my blogger friends. So yesterday I started pondering over how I am feeling, as many artists do. The words that popped up in my mind are “gratitude and acceptance”. As I have written in previous blogs; I have been feeling immense gratitude for the people, things and places that fill up my heart and mind. The book “The Magic” has inspired me like never before. However, the word “Acceptance” took me by surprise.
So I asked myself, “Where is this word coming from?” The answer: I accept who I am today, not tomorrow. I have spent a great deal of time planning my future and daydreaming. I’m a big believer in futuristic thinking but sometimes people get stuck in either the past or future. I began to feel stuck in the future, not knowing how to be present minded. Still-I am working on being more mindful each day.
The future is now. As I made plans for the future; I also began to feel stuck in the mindset of “why aren’t my dreams happening sooner? and I will be happy when….” How many of you have felt this way? So I realized I have been living for the future. Although I have been making strides towards my goals of being an actor, singer and writer; it was never good enough. So I asked myself, ” What can I do now to be happy?” What can I do, while pursuing my dreams that will be a “muse” to my creative ideas?
The entrepreneur in me has come up with a vision. I look forward to sharing this plan with you, as soon as it is copyrighted.=) So back to the word “Acceptance.” I’m learning to accept that I am always going to be the “type” to want a job that is spontaneous, creative and in a healthy, happy environment. After browsing the internet about the word “Acceptance.”, I found a few quotes that inspired me and would like to share with you tonight.
“To be given permission to be confused — and remain confused — for as long as it takes would have been a huge gift.”
― Janet Jackson, True You: A Journey to Finding and Loving Yourself
“In life one has a choice to take one of two paths: to wait for some special day – or to celebrate each special day.”
― Rasheed Ogunlaru
The price tag that you put on your soul will determine the people and circumstances in which you find yourself.”
― Shannon L. Alder
With Gratitude and Acceptance,