Joy

“We simply cannot know joy without embracing vulnerability” by Brene Brown (author)

I adore this quote and the trick is to focus on gratitude and not fear.  I feel immense joy, when my attention is directed towards gratitude.  How about you?  How do you, or can you… show gratitude today and therefore begin feeling more joy in your life.

A short poem, if you will…

JOY

Capture me, take me

But do so knowing

That I am grateful

For you

JOY

Take me over

And know

That I am feeling

Opaque

But that is vulnerability

And this feeling is okay

And the more I am real

Showing Gratitude and living this life of love

The more JOY shows up.

I am present

This moment is vulnerability at its finest.

Only thinking in the moment

Being grateful for each step

And it will lead me back to you

JOY

Finally Free

Finally Free

I feel the weight fall off

It’s falling off me

My body is numb.

A heavy sigh grows

And I sigh again.

These eyes are aware,

Fully aware

Of this newfound freedom.

Freedom,

I am finally free.

I want to scream.

I want to shake,

Like a high voltage jolting

Me.

As a bird stirs from an

electrical line,

I am finally free.

This electricity radiates around the car.

I am aware of my surroundings

For a moment,

A single moment,

Nothing else matters.

With a long, deep breath

I hold onto this feeling.

Please… don’t leave me.

Stay with me.

I need you to be alive.

But then,

Just like that

Its is gone.

And the electricity fades

To a flat line.

But I am still free

I know I am.

My mind holds on.

Searching,

Searching,

I remember feeling free.

Searching…

My mind rests

And the heart takes over.

“Mind”, heart says

“You get in the way.”

Beat. Beat. Beat. Beat.

This heart pulsating…

I am free again

Finally free.

Injustice

I am more than my words, more than my skin, more than my beliefs.

I am me.

I am more than what you know about me.

I am more than the lies you told yourself.

I am me.

You dared to tell me, what I can or cannot do.

Yet, you don’t know me.

I gave you a chance to see the real me.

I presented you with a gift

And helped you unwrap the gift.

Each ribbon unraveled and the paper crumpled.

It took time to consider,

Giving you this present.

You opened a package,

It’s called “vulnerability” .

This time around, the gift was expected.

And yet the gift was merely looked at

And wrapped up again.

Time and again,

You glanced at this gift called vulnerability

Without really seeing it.

I am more than the present.

I am me

I am more than your opinions and perceptions.

I am me.

You shook Vulnerability with all your might

For what reason? For what purpose?

I never imagined you would lose such sight.

I want the gift back but you have it now.

Yet, I still have vulnerabilities

And thus, I will re-gift to myself.

Yet you remain, as injustice does.

And I am me.

I am me.

In Motion

Moving, Moving

I am in motion

Moving, Moving

A wave of emotion

Walking, Walking

I found a way

Running, Running

I can see the end

Jumping, Jumping

I finally feel the commotion

Leaping, Leaping

For what I have always known

Falling, Falling

For the unknown

I am in motion, I am in motion

Standing, Standing

For what I believe in

Holding, Holding

Because I am only human

Walking, Walking

In motion again

Running, Running

A steady pace

Lunging, Lunging

To the end in sight

Falling, Falling

Because I can.

 

I am in motion

I am in motion.

 

One Moment at a Time

You are probably singing right now…”One moment in time….” but I seriously meant ” One Moment at a Time” as post title.  Why? Because all it takes is one moment in time to realize our true potential.  This Tuesday marked the 3rd week of Core Film Class at Art Sake’s Studio.  I have been enjoying the heck out of this class.  I am learning to trust my impulses in acting and to be more “in the moment”.

This week I am realizing that doors continue to open.  I feel there is limitless possibilities and potential in our world.  Sometimes the doors that open are right in front of our eyes, and we fail to notice for one reason or another.  So that is where “mindfulness” comes in.  When I slow my mind down and focus on the emotions, what is bubbling up under the surface; the answers begin to appear. So I encourage you to do the same.  Go to Google and click on “Guided Imagery”, meditations or take a local yoga class.  It really does make a significant different on your day while also bringing clarity to what is bubbling up.

This week was exciting!  Stay tuned, as my friend Georgia and I just began pre production on our co-write.  We will be posting our new song this summer.  Also, I will be an extra in a local Indie film called ” Hope for Harmony” to be taped this upcoming week.

Not much more to say, as its Friday “Eve”.  We are all tired, right?  Time to renew, repair and reboot for the next week.

Live. Love. Create.

Kimberly

Acceptance

Lately the word “Acceptance” has been on my mind.  I hardly feel like writing tonight as I am one busy mommy and entrepreneur these days.  But I miss writing to you, my blogger friends.   So yesterday I started pondering over how I am feeling, as many artists do.  The words that popped up in my mind  are “gratitude and acceptance”.  As I have written in previous blogs; I have been feeling immense gratitude for the people, things and places that fill up my heart and mind.  The book “The Magic” has inspired me like never before.  However, the word “Acceptance” took me by surprise.

So I asked myself, “Where is this word coming from?”  The answer: I accept who I am today, not tomorrow.  I have spent a great deal of time planning my future and daydreaming.  I’m a big believer in futuristic thinking but sometimes people get stuck in either the past or future.  I began to feel stuck in the future, not knowing how to be present minded.  Still-I am working on being more mindful each day.

The future is now.  As I made plans for the future; I also began to feel stuck in the mindset of  “why aren’t my dreams happening sooner? and I will be happy when….”  How many of you have felt this way?  So I realized I have been living for the future.  Although I have been making strides towards my goals of being an actor, singer and writer; it was never good enough.  So I asked myself, ” What can I do now to be happy?”  What can I do, while pursuing my dreams that will be a “muse” to my creative ideas?

The entrepreneur in me has come up with a vision.  I look forward to sharing this plan with you, as soon as it is copyrighted.=)  So back to the word “Acceptance.”  I’m learning to accept that I am always going to be the “type” to want a job that is spontaneous, creative and in a healthy, happy environment.  After browsing the internet about the word “Acceptance.”,  I found a few quotes that inspired me and would like to share with you tonight.

“To be given permission to be confused — and remain confused — for as long as it takes would have been a huge gift.”

― Janet Jackson, True You: A Journey to Finding and Loving Yourself

“In life one has a choice to take one of two paths: to wait for some special day – or to celebrate each special day.”

― Rasheed Ogunlaru

The price tag that you put on your soul will determine the people and circumstances in which you find yourself.”

― Shannon L. Alder

With Gratitude and Acceptance,

Kimberly

Gratitude

The Magic has begun!  If you did not read my previous blog, allow me to bring you up to date.  I have been reading “The Magic” by Rhonda Byrnes.  It is truly inspiring me to do more, be more, share more.  I highly recommend this book, if you haven’t already figured that out. LOL.  Anyways, I miss writing to you; my invisible blogger and fans.

So here is the latest on my artistic journey, in case you are wondering.  I have been researching the top recording studios in Central Florida. So far I have narrowed my search to a select few.  This week I will be touring facilities and making a decision about where to record the latest song (a co-write).  Please stay tuned, as I will be posting this song.  Also, I am preparing for next open Mic night in College Park.  Although I am not a professional guitarist; I will be attempting to learn as many chords, and strum like crazy for the next two weeks in order to be ready for open Mic. I have vowed that if I do not feel confident in my amateur guitar skills; nothing will stop me from singing.  So, I will be singing Acapella.

“Come hell or high-water” (I think that is how the saying goes; I will continue to push forward with my singing/acting and entrepreneurship.  This journey has not been an easy one as I have been challenged by adversities.  However, it is the resilience, determination and passion which I truly feel will lead me in best direction and create success along the way.

It is the journey not the final destination that really matters after all.  I’m enjoying the small moments, the precious ones with our daughter Olivia and being grateful for this life.  I’m truly grateful for you, my invisible readers. Although I cannot see you;  I know you exist.  Thanks for your comments and feedback.

Be Well and Give Gratitude,

Kimberly

The Magic

I am reading this awe-inspiring book called ” The Magic” by Rhonda Byrnes. It from the series of books beginning with The Secret, then “The Power” and now “The Magic” regarding the Law of Attraction.  There is a paragraph at start of first chapter which truly captures the essence of “The Magic”.

It reads “I am here to tell you that the magic you once believed in is true, and it’s the disillusioned adult perspective of life that is false. The magic of life is real and it’s as real as you are.  In fact, life can be far more wondrous than you ever thought it was as a child, and more breathtaking, awe-inspiring, and exciting than anything you’ve seen before.  When you know what to do to bring forth the magic, you will live the life of your dreams.  Then, you will wonder how you ever could have given up in believing in the magic of life!”

The key discussed at the start of this book.  And I say “start” because I have just begun reading this book.  The key is one word: Gratitude.  Yes, many of us daily give thanks for “our bread”, friends, family and say thank you to the stranger who kindly opens the door.  However, the author challenges us to give an abundance of thanks with intention and regularly.  There is a 28 day journey to bring forth the magic into your life by gratitude detailed in the book.  The book also provides activities to increase gratitude.

So I want to say a big THANK YOU to Rhonda Byrne and the team that created this book “The Magic”.  Why?  Because the more I give; the more magical my life becomes.  As Willie Nelson (singer-songwriter) quotes ” When I started counting my blessings, my whole life turned around.”  I have been aware of gratitude and believe I am a grateful person.  However, I can be doing so much more to express gratitude and give back.

I hope that this blog inspires you, the reader, to continue your journey of attracting magic to your life.  Give, give, give!!!

With Appreciation,

Kimberly

Here Comes The Sun

You don’t need to say

Anything at all.

Your actions scream

All I will ever need to know.

I have seen the real you.

The ugly side,

You try to keep hidden.

I vowed to believe,

That even you could change.

That the world

Is not a damaged place.

But the tiger in you

Decided to come out and play

And this momma bear

Is not game to your charades.

And no doubt, you will continue to

Roarrrrrrrrrrrr…

As you always do,

Seeking fellow tigers

to listen and agree with you.

Your gossip will spread

But my integrity will remain strong.

You have no power over me

This momma bear is free.

And now I begin a new journey.

The rays are shining

And pushing me onwards.

Here comes the sun.  Here comes the sun.

This song called “Here Comes The Sun” by The Beatles is uplifting.  Check it out below

Day 60

Not much to say about Day 60.  Why? Because I survived through another day of being sick.  Last night I checked into an urgent care clinic for what I thought was the Flu.  But thankfully, it turned out to be a bad cold and ear infection.  Still I felt miserable. There were a few things/people who deserve honorable mention for their support.

A special thanks to my mom, dad, Art (my husband), Olivia (daughter) and to Glee.

GLEE (the show) really helped me survive while being sick.  I was able to catch up on a few episodes and I’m always inspired by this show to continue shooting for the moon (my dreams).  And of course a special thanks to my sisters and friends for your text messages which rooted for me to recover.

Day 60 marks my goal for 60 posts, in sixty days.  Overall I have 111 posts (my lucky number “11″).  I’m excited about this journey because I am creating the life I have always dreamed of, except now I am actually putting my thoughts into action.  So from here on out, I will only be posting blogs about a personal journey of becoming the artist I always imagined.  We are all children at heart.  And now I am talking directly to you, fellow blogger and/or viewer.  You can tap into your “element” and bring your inner child to life.  Do what you love to do!  Thanks for supporting and following me on this journey.

Be Well,

Kimberly

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