24 Sep 2013
in blogger, gratitude, healing, Hope, Life, poem, poetry, psychology, Writing
Tags: gratitude, Happiness, happy, joy, life, mindfulness, poem, poetry, positive psychology, psychology
“We simply cannot know joy without embracing vulnerability” by Brene Brown (author)
I adore this quote and the trick is to focus on gratitude and not fear. I feel immense joy, when my attention is directed towards gratitude. How about you? How do you, or can you… show gratitude today and therefore begin feeling more joy in your life.
A short poem, if you will…
Capture me, take me
But do so knowing
That I am grateful
Take me over
That I am feeling
But that is vulnerability
And this feeling is okay
And the more I am real
Showing Gratitude and living this life of love
The more JOY shows up.
I am present
This moment is vulnerability at its finest.
Only thinking in the moment
Being grateful for each step
And it will lead me back to you
16 Aug 2013
in gratitude, healing, lyrics, poem, psychology, Writing
Tags: clarity, free, freedom, mindfulness, poetry, resilience, self expression
I feel the weight fall off
It’s falling off me
My body is numb.
A heavy sigh grows
And I sigh again.
These eyes are aware,
Of this newfound freedom.
I am finally free.
I want to scream.
I want to shake,
Like a high voltage jolting
As a bird stirs from an
I am finally free.
This electricity radiates around the car.
I am aware of my surroundings
For a moment,
A single moment,
Nothing else matters.
With a long, deep breath
I hold onto this feeling.
Please… don’t leave me.
Stay with me.
I need you to be alive.
Just like that
Its is gone.
And the electricity fades
To a flat line.
But I am still free
I know I am.
My mind holds on.
I remember feeling free.
My mind rests
And the heart takes over.
“Mind”, heart says
“You get in the way.”
Beat. Beat. Beat. Beat.
This heart pulsating…
I am free again
07 Jul 2013
in Acting, audition, blogger, film, Florida, gratitude, Life, Mother, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: audition, Blogger, family, feature film, film, friendship, kings gambit, orlando, Writing
These song lyrics are repeating in my head this morning…
“Oh, what a beautiful Mornin’
Oh, what a beautiful day.
I’ve got a beautiful feelin’
Everything’s goin’ my way.”
Yes and for good reason. I have a BIG audition today as news reporter for a feature film. After many hours committed to learning the lines; feeling the role and using positive psychology; I feel ready to go forward with confidence on my audition. Acting is not glamorous but it feels glamorous when you are prepared. There is nothing glamorous about spending countless hours prepping for auditions. However, the hard work pays off because of the feeling you get. It is this natural high of accomplishment. Artists will understand this.
I managed to balance fourth of July festivities with fun, family time at the beach and the memorization of lines. I’m finding immense joy in the simplicity that life brings, the small moments with my daughter as she feels the sand in her toes. These moments inspire me to also be mindful of the sand in my toes and to play in the ocean. It is time spent with family and friends that I am truly grateful for. I keep hearing that mantra: ”Play hard, work hard!” What if we changed it to ” Play easy, work easy!” I like the sound of that because life is really a state of mind. If we have the mindset that work and play will be fun and a breeze; it is. Work is what we make of it.
Alright, well I could go on but I have dress rehearsal for my audition today. I always prepare my clothes in advance and then have a dress rehearsal as if I have already booked the part. Until next post, have a beautiful Sunday and do something you really enjoy today! For me its film acting and a long walk with the family.
Live. Love. Create
02 Jul 2013
in blogger, career, gratitude, healing, inspiration, Life, spirituality, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: artist, Blogger, emotion, faith, hope, motion, movement, perseverence, transition, writer
I am in motion
A wave of emotion
I found a way
I can see the end
I finally feel the commotion
For what I have always known
For the unknown
I am in motion, I am in motion
For what I believe in
Because I am only human
In motion again
A steady pace
To the end in sight
Because I can.
I am in motion
I am in motion.
22 Jun 2013
in Acting, blogger, career, film, Florida, gratitude, Life, nashville, Writing
Tags: acting, actor, art sake studio, blue sky production, casting, christy poggi, film class, video
This week began with the usual. And then there was Film Class at Art Sake Studio. This CORE film class opens up the chakras and assists in bringing great truth to acting. It unleashes vulnerability and allows for people to feel safe in sharing and exploring various emotions. This week we continued with Meisner Film games and were fortunate to attend a workshop by Christy Poggi on empathy. Since I am a LMHC (Licensed Mental Health Counselor); I must admit that at first, I wasn’t sure what more I could learn about empathy. Empathy training was a large part of my Master’s program. However; empathy applied to Film Acting is a very different ball game. As a counselor we empathize with clients; however, as a film actor we empathize with the character while being truthful to our own vulnerabilities. As a counselor we are taught boundaries and to stay focused on client, often disregarding our own emotional impulse. This occurs for good reason in therapy. However; in film acting, boundaries are loose for good reason. We are encouraged to take risks with ourselves and actors during scenework. Speaking of risks, leads me to the word FEAR.
I am scared to death (a bit dramatic, yes) of ACTING. I have always been afraid of it yet secretly wanted to play the leading lady on General Hospital. Also, I would secretly want to be Sandra Bullock in all of the romantic comedies. You see, we all have “inner critics” that scream at us right when we feel we can do something. The inner critic often says ” it’s too hard”, ” you aren’t good enough”, “that’s impossible”, “You aren’t smart enough.” etc. But these barriers are imaginary and created, without giving us as a chance to prove the inner critic wrong. I’m thankful to mentors that have told me to not listen to this chatter. Yet, I go into the unknown and I am at times scared ______. You get the idea and can fill in the blank. I feel empowered speaking the truth and this will free me. There is a quote about fear from “The Artist Way” by Julia Cameron.
” It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare; it is because we do not dare that they are difficult.” Seneca
My updates for this week: I was cast in an Infomercial for Hand Hygiene at Dr. P. Phillips Hospital. Blue Sky Production crew based out of Nashville were wonderful folks to work with. They were professional and had a sense of humor, which created ease on the set. It was a long day but well worth it. I actually cried “real tears” during one scene with a young boy (who played my child). I credit my acting class at Art Sake for giving me tools to illicit tears on film. It helped for me to do some breathing exercises, to breath into the emotion. What I am learning is this; Although I fear acting, I’m growing more confident and I attribute this to taking risks. And that’s a wrap!
Enjoy your weekend!
Live. Love. Create.
20 May 2013
in Acting, audition, blogger, career, co writing, gratitude, inspiration, Life, Mother, movie, music, Singing, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: act, acting, art sake, artists way, audition, casting, co write, create, creative, film, filming, full sail, independent, julia cameron, lyricist, movie, side, Singing, studio, writer
This week was a journey. It was a journey filled with many emotions. Let’s just cut to the chase, shall we? So what is the latest on my artistic pursuit of creative rebellion? Well, lets see I started film class last week at Art Sake Studio. Check it out at http://www.art-sake.com/art-sake.com/Home.html. The class rocks and I already feel like I am learning more than I could imagine from one class. The class is inspired by one of my favorite author’s Julia Cameron (author of book ” The Artist Way”). This class encourages its patrons to attend as many auditions as possible in order to unleash the inner artist and to encourage personal growth. So this Saturday, I went to Full Sail University’s open casting call for local films. I was expecting to audition for two movies. However; when I arrived there was a long table set up with about six creative projects including video game auditions. There was a moment of panic followed by sheer excitement. I went down the aisle and signed up for each casting available. There I sat with five clipboards filled with information about each casting, followed by sides. “Sides” refers to the specific set of lines from the script of an acting project that your child (or you) must learn prior to an audition. It took some time to organize all the paperwork, sign the releases and remember which “Sides” belonged to the appropriate paperwork. I thought, ”If I can figure out how to organize this mess, it’s half the battle.”
I highly recommend auditioning at Full Sail. The staff was very friendly and the casting directors were also friendly, approachable, and eager to get the best shot. The directors were professional and provided feedback. Check out Full Sail’s site at http://www.myspace.com/fullsailcasting. I was there from 3 pm until 6:30 pm auditioning for five projects. It was a long wait but worth it. Why? Because I left with increased confidence. I felt great about the performances I gave and the courage it took to show up. So I encourage you to do the same. Find the courage within to do something you’ve always wanted to do and do it, without question.
Film business has taken the driver’s seat this week. So last night I changed it up by meeting with a friend and co-writer to solidify our song and to make arrangements to record in the upcoming week. Cannot wait to share with you! Mostly, I am feeling very grateful for the support of my husband and family which allows me to go on these auditions. Our daughter Olivia Daisy always inspires and her smile pushes me onward.
It’s been a week’s journey. It feels like this is really happening. That I am becoming the artist I always wanted to be.
Live. Love. Create.
10 May 2013
in audition, Baby, blogger, career, child, gratitude, inspiration, Life, lyrics, Mother, music, print model, Singing, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: austins coffee, catalog, change, coffee shop, credo coffee, guitar, model, Music, scholastic book, Singer, Songwriter, unexpected
After my last blog, I was filled with excitement to sing at Credo Coffee shop. I had been rehearsing vocal and guitar for over a week in order to perform there for what would be my 2nd time. The guitar was becoming my friend and I let go of my grudge against it. You see the guitar and I have a “love/hate” relationship. But recently I decided to give it another try on my terms. So when my baby girl fell asleep and with my husband’s support; I practiced chords on guitar and strummed along to my original tunes. I felt fairly confident that I was ready to showcase my original songs, even if my guitar skills were not perfect. However, sometimes things happen for a reason. The weekend prior to open mic, the guitar was not tuned. I tried tuning it several times, using different tuning methods but was not successful. I was losing hope and wondered if the guitar was broken. But really I felt like the broken one because I was so disappointed. What I really wanted was the last two days (weekend) to rehearse. And well with a baby, various creative endeavors and life; it just didn’t happen. With that being said, I am glad it did not. And thankfully, the guitar was fixed. It turned out that only ONE STRING was out of tune. But due to limited time and my desire to perform at my best; I chose to sing at next open mic. I’m thinking about trying out Austin’s Coffee Shop next week. Sometimes I am too hard on myself. One missed open mic is nothing in grand scheme of life. The important thing is that I am playing the guitar and not giving up on this creative growth.
Sometimes the unexpected actually turns out to be a great thing! So after my disappointment, I set my mind on the next creative goals. And with a tuned guitar, I felt that opportunities were endless. Then I got a phone call from my agent. She wanted to submit me as print model for Scholastic Books catalog. I was excited and of course said “Yes!”. I booked the job and arrived at Scholastic Books on Thursday. It was such a positive experience and the team of artists, directors and photographer were professional. This is another experience that reaffirmed my love of entertainment field. I enjoy print modeling as much as acting and singing.
It just goes to show you that sometimes change is a GREAT thing and that unexpectancies can be GREAT. Here are some quotes that I stumbled upon when looking up “unexpectancies, change.”
“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” -Maria Robinson
“Today is the first day of the rest of your life.” -Anonymous
“All great changes are preceded by chaos.” -Deepak Chopra
“Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.” -C.S. Lewis
“Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” -Marilyn Monroe
“If what you’re doing is not your passion, you have nothing to lose.” Unknown
Be Well and have a fantastic weekend!
03 May 2013
in blogger, gratitude, inspiration, lyrics, Mother, music, musical, Singing, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: baby, Blogger, blogging, family, gratitude, guitar, hope, inspiration, lyrics, Music, positivity, Singing, teaching, thank you
This Monday I will be singing for the 2nd time after a long break (post baby). I’m excited and surprised myself recently when I picked up the guitar again (literally). I have a love/hate relationship with the guitar. It dates back to many guitar lessons, in which I didn’t feel I was learning the guitar in the way “I should”; as dictated by teachers. So I learn differently and needed the teacher’s “style” to adapt. Several of my music teachers were unwilling to find a method that worked for me, rigidly wanting to stick to their own style. So after a few attempts to privately train; I decided to teach myself. So far so good. I know a few guitar chords and can strum, so this is a start. Monday night, I will be singing original lyrics and strumming my guitar at a local coffee shop. It shall be fun!
Lately, I have been very inspired by consistently saying my “thank you’s” about everything in this life. I’m thankful for every bite of delicious food, the home I live in, the baby and family I have. Its being as grateful for the small things, small moments as I am for the bigger things and bigger moments. As I give more gratitude, I feel more positivity and it magnifies in expected and unexpected ways. That’s the best way I know how to describe the feeling.
Well keep on giving and stay tuned for my new original songs/lyrics to be posted.
22 Apr 2013
in blogger, co writing, gratitude, healing, Life, lyrics, music, psychology, Singing, spirituality, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: Blogger, chords, college park, confidence, fans, grateful, gratitude, guitar, inspiration, love, magic, mindfulness, open mic, quotes, rhonda byrne, Songwriter, songwriting, spirituality, success, Writing
The Magic has begun! If you did not read my previous blog, allow me to bring you up to date. I have been reading “The Magic” by Rhonda Byrnes. It is truly inspiring me to do more, be more, share more. I highly recommend this book, if you haven’t already figured that out. LOL. Anyways, I miss writing to you; my invisible blogger and fans.
So here is the latest on my artistic journey, in case you are wondering. I have been researching the top recording studios in Central Florida. So far I have narrowed my search to a select few. This week I will be touring facilities and making a decision about where to record the latest song (a co-write). Please stay tuned, as I will be posting this song. Also, I am preparing for next open Mic night in College Park. Although I am not a professional guitarist; I will be attempting to learn as many chords, and strum like crazy for the next two weeks in order to be ready for open Mic. I have vowed that if I do not feel confident in my amateur guitar skills; nothing will stop me from singing. So, I will be singing Acapella.
“Come hell or high-water” (I think that is how the saying goes; I will continue to push forward with my singing/acting and entrepreneurship. This journey has not been an easy one as I have been challenged by adversities. However, it is the resilience, determination and passion which I truly feel will lead me in best direction and create success along the way.
It is the journey not the final destination that really matters after all. I’m enjoying the small moments, the precious ones with our daughter Olivia and being grateful for this life. I’m truly grateful for you, my invisible readers. Although I cannot see you; I know you exist. Thanks for your comments and feedback.
Be Well and Give Gratitude,