10 May 2013
by Kimberly Beaman
in audition, Baby, blogger, career, child, gratitude, inspiration, Life, lyrics, Mother, music, print model, Singing, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: austins coffee, catalog, change, coffee shop, credo coffee, guitar, model, Music, scholastic book, Singer, Songwriter, unexpected
After my last blog, I was filled with excitement to sing at Credo Coffee shop. I had been rehearsing vocal and guitar for over a week in order to perform there for what would be my 2nd time. The guitar was becoming my friend and I let go of my grudge against it. You see the guitar and I have a “love/hate” relationship. But recently I decided to give it another try on my terms. So when my baby girl fell asleep and with my husband’s support; I practiced chords on guitar and strummed along to my original tunes. I felt fairly confident that I was ready to showcase my original songs, even if my guitar skills were not perfect. However, sometimes things happen for a reason. The weekend prior to open mic, the guitar was not tuned. I tried tuning it several times, using different tuning methods but was not successful. I was losing hope and wondered if the guitar was broken. But really I felt like the broken one because I was so disappointed. What I really wanted was the last two days (weekend) to rehearse. And well with a baby, various creative endeavors and life; it just didn’t happen. With that being said, I am glad it did not. And thankfully, the guitar was fixed. It turned out that only ONE STRING was out of tune. But due to limited time and my desire to perform at my best; I chose to sing at next open mic. I’m thinking about trying out Austin’s Coffee Shop next week. Sometimes I am too hard on myself. One missed open mic is nothing in grand scheme of life. The important thing is that I am playing the guitar and not giving up on this creative growth.
Sometimes the unexpected actually turns out to be a great thing! So after my disappointment, I set my mind on the next creative goals. And with a tuned guitar, I felt that opportunities were endless. Then I got a phone call from my agent. She wanted to submit me as print model for Scholastic Books catalog. I was excited and of course said “Yes!”. I booked the job and arrived at Scholastic Books on Thursday. It was such a positive experience and the team of artists, directors and photographer were professional. This is another experience that reaffirmed my love of entertainment field. I enjoy print modeling as much as acting and singing.
It just goes to show you that sometimes change is a GREAT thing and that unexpectancies can be GREAT. Here are some quotes that I stumbled upon when looking up “unexpectancies, change.”
“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” -Maria Robinson
“Today is the first day of the rest of your life.” -Anonymous
“All great changes are preceded by chaos.” -Deepak Chopra
“Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.” -C.S. Lewis
“Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” -Marilyn Monroe
“If what you’re doing is not your passion, you have nothing to lose.” Unknown
Be Well and have a fantastic weekend!
Kimberly
29 Mar 2013
by Kimberly Beaman
in Baby, blogger, child, gratitude, inspiration, Life, lyrics, Mother, Parenting, poetry, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: baby, endless, love, mindfulness, mommy, motherhood, poem, poetry, unconditional, winter park, Writing
*This poem is dedicated to Olivia Daisy. She is my cheerful, creative, sweet, intuitive and strong-willed 18 month old baby girl. I love you cupcake.
I never knew
Just how much
You would mean to me.
How your eyes
Would touch a deep place
In my soul.
A place that I didn’t know existed.
I never knew
That when I looked at you,
The world would stand still.
That time wouldn’t matter.
That nothing mattered but you.
I never knew that I could love someone
This much.
That I would do anything for you.
Anything
I never knew that you would steal my heart
With one look
One smile
One glance
One touch
Your first word
Your first walk
Your first kiss
Your first hug
Your first goodbye
Your first hello
I never knew,
Love could be this endless.
Thank you,
Now I know.
27 Feb 2013
by Kimberly Beaman
in blogger, child, health, Life, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: Blogger, comedy, family, kite, law of attraction, mindfulness, motivation, Writing
Tuesday, Tuesday, Tuesday, unmotivated Tuesday. I was just saying to my hubby last night that I tend to be highly motivated, to the point that it sometimes annoys me, how motivated I am. Sometimes I just want to relax, laugh or have fun without “multi tasking”. Even when I am relaxing, I usually am still doing something.
So no wonder that today I received what I asked for. It was a very uneventful, low motivation kind of day. But we all need those days. I complained about how unmotivated I was today, but then I realized that I asked for this to happen.
However, this boring kind of day became less boring early evening. Why? Because I declared out loud; “I have to get out of this house and into the sunshine.” The day was overcast but suddenly the sun came out around 5 pm. My mom, husband, baby and I walked to the park. It was peaceful with blue skies and a few clouds over head.
We put a blanket out and Olivia cheered with joy as she tried to catch bubbles, which she called “pop pop.” We thought it might be a good idea to fly a kite. What were we thinking? There was minimal amount of wind. My mom said people walking by probably thought we were crazy since there really was no wind. We began to laugh. I decided to run so fast across the choppy, wet grass in order to make the kite fly. What was I thinking?
You see, new grass was recently added to the area we were in and it had just rained. I felt so free for a whole thirty seconds and then felt my body flying like a sad kite, who only wanted the wind. I felt the right side of my body bang the ground and I rolled many times. I landed on the left side of my body, hitting my head. For a minute, I felt like I did in soccer practice and games, after being hit by an opponent. I was out of air and in mild to moderate pain. I could have cried but my baby girl was not far behind. I didn’t want to scare her. Instead I started having a laughing fit and everyone joined in.
That’s all I have for you today. This unmotivated, boring day turned into an interesting one, thanks to my attempt to “fly a kite”.
Be Well,
Kimberly
26 Feb 2013
by Kimberly Beaman
in Acting, audition, blogger, career, child, inspiration, Life, Mother, spirituality, Writing
Tags: acting, audition, baby, brain, child, commercial, deepak chopra, mindfulness, parenting, potential, Singing, super brain, tampa, Writing, yogurt
Today was a stellar day! I had an audition today for “Liberte Yogurt” Commercial. Right now I am in Tampa, Florida at local Starbucks waiting to visit with my girlfriend. The drive wasn’t so bad because I listened to an audio CD in the called “Super Brain: Unleashing the Explosive Power of Your Mind to Maximize Health, Happiness, and Spiritual Well-Being.” by Rudolph E. Tanzi, Deepak Chopra. I must admit that after the first half of this CD, I questioned if I could continue listening to a book on CD. Why? Because music usually perks me up on long rides and I was already recouping from lack of sleep (previous night). However, the author kept me tuned in detailing innovative health information regarding the unlimited potential of our brains. One point that was discussed repetitively was that we have power over our brains. Our brains do not control us unless we allow it to do so. In other words, we can all tap into unlimited potential and heal our mind, bodies and soul.
The only thing that is missing right now is Olivia. We played this morning before she went to school. However, it never seems enough as I love her to pieces. And of course any couples time (date nights) we can get, we take. We cherish each and every moment we spend together as a couple and as a family. I’m feeling really grateful for family and for opportunities that continue to arise. This career transition happened for a reason. I’m very excited of what is ahead!
Be Well,
Kimberly
20 Feb 2013
by Kimberly Beaman
in Acting, audition, blogger, career, child, Cooking, gratitude, inspiration, Life, Mother, Parenting, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: acting, actress, artist date, audition, Blogger, child, cooking, florida, julia cameron, mindfulness, Music, parenting, shopping, Singer, winter park, Writing
The day after yesterday. I just felt like saying that, not sure why. Today is day 43 and I am going strong! I’m feeling ambitious about creating the life I desire. Life is good.
Highlights for today:
* I managed to cook three meals this morning while watching my baby girl play. Not sure how it happened but it did. I prefer to cook several meals at once, freezing a few; rather than cooking each day.
* Olivia was a hands full today. She kept me guessing (literally). All day I asked her “What’s wrong?”, “What do you want?” “Tell mommy, what do you want?” “Do you want this?” ”Do you want that?”
And Olivia’s response: No (in the sweetest voice) followed by a sobbing cry (not so sweet). It didn’t seem possible to appease her today. Poor baby, she just wants to communicate and is so frustrated with me for not understanding her.
* I managed to go clothes/shoe shopping for Olivia this afternoon. This was no small feat. And man, were they right about that saying “It takes a village to raise a child.” I was wishing a village came with me shopping today. Liv gave me a run for my money this afternoon. But mommy kept her cool, gave Liv many kisses and managed to complete the shopping trip. What helped? Snacks, smiles, hugs, toys (and when I say toys, that means anything that is kid friendly, even a cup or straw will do).
Today was all about productivity because tomorrow is my “artist date”. Artist date is just a fancy word that means we “take ourselves on a date by doing what we love, creating art”. So tommorow after my daughter goes to school; I write music, sing and seek the latest auditions for acting. Sometimes I will do something relaxing to invoke my creative spirit to come out and play. There is a great author named Julia Cameron who wrote a series of books geared towards artists. Check out her books at http://juliacameronlive.com/.
Be Well and goodnight,
Kimberly
18 Feb 2013
by Kimberly Beaman
in audition, blogger, child, Life, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: actor, audition, baby, bradley cooper, career, film, motherhood, playbook, silver linings, Singer, songwriting, Writing
Today was a VERY cold day in Florida. I am so confused by Florida weather. One day rainy, one day freezing, another day hot and then back to freaking COLD. You’d think I would be use to it, since I am a native to Florida, but I am not. Oh well. I could put a positive spin on this and say that the unpredictable weather always keeps us guessing. As if the weather is an exciting surprise. But the truth is, I am not amused. Mostly, because my wardrobe goes in and out of boxes regularly, not knowing what to expect next.
Okay lets see, highlights for today.
* Music highlight: Worked more on latest song, in which I am co writing. Very excited about this!! I will be meeting up with co writer tomorrow evening to continue our edits. Can’t wait!
* I went to an audition for a Full Sail movie. The only catch is NO ONE WAS THERE. So there was no audition for me. I am still puzzled by this. But I did leave the casting department a message. I will try again.
* Enjoyed a belated, but not forgotten, Valentines day dinner and movie with my husband. We watched a movie called ” Silver Linings Playbook” directed by David O. Russell. One of my favorite actors is Bradley Cooper (stars in this film) . Our dinner at Thai Singh was fantastic. ”Late night noodles” has always been our favorite dish there. Delicious!!! (Thanks for babysitting mom and dad!)
Very sleepy so goodnight…
Kimberly
13 Feb 2013
by Kimberly Beaman
in Baby, blogger, child, Life, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: baby, beads, dance, family, Fun, hannibal shop, mardi gras, mom, motherhood, winter park
Today was a very busy day with little one (our daughter Olivia). Here is a brief synopsis of highlights from Day 36.
Highlights for Today:
* The City of Winter Park approved the first ever night parade to take place in the streets of the Hannibal Square Shopping and Dining District. We went tonight and enjoyed watching the parade, the bright array of colors.
http://www.orlandoeventsunlimited.com/
* Our daughter was dancing to the performers of the “Capoeira Brazilian Martial-Art” Very entertaining and highly skilled group! Check them out at http://www.brazilartcenter.com
Olivia dancing
* Creative juices are flowing and songs keep coming to me. I am excited about co-writing this Friday evening.
Be Well,
Kimberly
06 Feb 2013
by Kimberly Beaman
in Acting, audition, Baby, blogger, career, child, Life, Mother, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: audition, central florida, children, commercial, games, lyrics, mom, motherhood, winter park, Writing
Day 29, I woke up and told myself you’d be good to me, and you were. So thanks for that.
Highlights for today:
* I actually focused on cooking several meals and prepping snacks for the entire week. It was the first time in a long time, that I could sustain great focus in the kitchen. I cooked up a storm and it looked like one too. You see I don’t really enjoy cooking. I just try to convince myself that I do. Sometimes it works.
( lasagna, peeled fruit, cut up sandwiches, and stir fried veggies).
* Another beautiful Winter Park day today! I enjoyed quality time with my niece and nephew. Olivia loves playing with her cousins. They got to play (duck, duck, goose), a childhood favorite for me. I think I had the most fun!
* Many thanks to Mom for putting together Olivia’s kitchen set. I think we have a chef on our hands (Mom, you are already one. I was talking about Olivia.)
* I intended to write more today (lyrics and book writing) but there were unexpected, important phone calls and baby demands. So I am writing my blog, which was one daily goal. Right now preparing for Thursday’s commercial audition is much more important (After my baby of course. But she is asleep right now..shhhhhh)
And with that being said, goodnight and sweet dreaming
Kimberly
04 Feb 2013
by Kimberly Beaman
in blogger, child, Florida, health, Life, Mother, psychology, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: artist, baby, brain, family, health, lyrics, mindfulness, mom, motherhood, Music, Singer, Songwriter, Writing
Day 26, I cannot complain. Today was a another beautiful day in Winter Park. The sun was beaming yet it was crisp as the ocean breeze. It was cool but not freezing. Here are the highlights for today.
* My in-laws visited and spent the day with us. We really enjoyed spending time with them. Olivia practiced her spanish and called her grandmother (Abu) and her grandfather (Belo). Well lets just say she tried to say “Belo” but it came out as “Bayo”. Olivia enjoyed catching bubbles and cuddling with her new favorite toy doggy named “Roxy.” Thanks Abu y Belo for a fun day!
* I managed to take a nap while Olivia slept. Well lets just say we all slept. That’s right. Abu, Belo, Art, Olivia and I all took a nap and at the same time. That is a rarity!
* A nap= a rested, happier mommy!
* I achieved one round of Lumosity. Lumosity improves brain health and performance.
Check it out at http://www.lumosity.com/
* I posted on my blog! Day 27, you creeped up on me but I feel proud, that I am still writing, twenty-seven days later. Woo Hoo!
* And lastly, my music goal today is to post one of my song ideas (lyrics only) for your feedback. So here it is. The song is entitled “On A Sunday” written/copyrighted 2008. I left this song incomplete and recently worked on it.
On a Sunday
CHORUS:
I wish that I’d wake up on a Sunday
And you’d be calling me
It could be about anything
But you’d only want to talk with me
Wouldn’t it be nice making time again
And we could reminisce
About how it all began
On a Sunday
VERSE:
And maybe you’d confide in me
Open the doors, allow me to see
The real you, like never before
Can you take the time?
There’s no need to push rewind
Just want us to start over
CHORUS:
I wish that I’d wake up on a Sunday
And you’d be calling me
It could be about anything
But you’d only want to talk with me
Wouldn’t it be nice, making time again?
And we could reminisce
About how it all began
I wish that I’d wake up on a Sunday
VERSE
Don’t know who you are anymore
Miss the person I thought you were
Do I have to call to feel invited?
I feel the space that keeps us at bay
Do you really want to leave it this way?
CHORUS:
I wish that I’d wake up on a Sunday
And you’d be calling me
It could be about anything
But you’d only want to talk with me
Wouldn’t it be nice, making time again?
We could reminisce
About how it all began
31 Jan 2013
by Kimberly Beaman
in Acting, audition, blogger, career, child, healing, Life, Mother, Singing, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: actor, amy adams, author, book, family, florida, grief, group, guided imagery, Singer, Songwriter, winter park
Day 23 not so shabby! The day began with a long stroll. It was a beautiful morning in Florida. Clear skies, with a few clouds and a cool wind passing by. As I dropped off Olivia to school; a storm of leaves canopied over us. We both stared in awe of that moment. Olivia is learning about leaves when we visit the park, almost daily. The leaves were all of a golden hue and I was reminded to be mindful of the present moment.
WP, Florida
Here are today’s highlights.
* I watched interviews of favorite actors such as Amy Adams. I’ve been doing research on acting/singing by watching interviews.
* Music goals of the day: to write one new song. I thought of a song idea but words did not come. Maybe they will tomorrow?
* I continued to write my book, well the ending to my book. I know this might sound strange but I actually know the ending before the middle part of the book. The start to the book is complete, unsure of the middle but definitely sold on the ending. That’s pretty much a metaphor for my life. Yet I am working on how to enjoy the “in between” and to live more mindfully.
* Guided Imagery? I planned to relax by listening to some guided imagery by Kelly Howell. I love her You Tube videos. However, for some reason my laptop is on “Mute” and I made many attempts to fix this problem. It didn’t work so I resigned to the notion that this must be a “sign from above” that I am not mean to do guided imagery today.
* And lastly, I received a call from my agent for an audition next Friday for local commercial. Very exciting and now the memorization and practice begins. As an actor, you get use to rejection; It’s just part of the game. However, I always go into auditions feeling optimistic and believing that perseverance must pay off. I’ve been on many auditions and landed a few great roles on television. Lets hope this is another one of those roles.
Well after a long day, and leading a group for grief and loss this evening; I am tired. Good night until Day 24.
Be Well,
Kimberly
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