23 Mar 2014
in blogger, career, child, gratitude, health, Life, Mother, Parenting, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: baby, Blogger, entrepreneur, family, gratitude, mom, momma, mommapreneur, mommapreneurship, mother, motherhood, Writing
I want to hear from the mommapreneur’s out there. How do you DO it? What is it like being a mom and an entrepreneur? What are the highs, lows and the in-between, or what I call the “tweeners” of your experience?
I feel like we can all learn from one another’s experience, so lets keep sharing.
The highs for me today include quality time with my little love bug..which included playing “Snow White” dress up and pretend play. Also I love when our girl says “Yes, mommy..okay.” Especially since the word YES, is a rarity at this age. Mostly, I hear her saying” No” or “All by myself.” Don’t get me wrong, I am all about fostering independence, but a “Yes” every once in a while, is music to my ears.
The “Tweener” moments include the endless clean-up around the house, and my creative mind racing with ideas; while my practical mind is saying ” woah, slow it down. Patience.” There are more ideas than time to do it, so it seems.
The “Lows” would include getting over a really annoying, ugly virus that pretty much swiped me out this week. Body is recovering yet still feels weak. We passed around this bug for two weeks, back and forth. Thankful our little love bug is healthy!
Grateful for the highs, the lows and the tweeners. That’s what being a mommapreneur is all about. For the newbies, welcome to Mommapreneurship.
Live. Love. Create
16 Mar 2014
in career, Life, Mother, Writing
Tags: balance, Blogger, childhood, disabilities, entrepreneur, exhaustion, harmony, mom, momma, preneur, self care, UCF, winter park, Writing
I’m feeling sleep deprived, yes. I feel like I need coffee but I know if I drink it, the sleep deprivation will only be masked. And then suddenly it will all hit me this afternoon. But I persist, despite the mommy fatigue. This journey is a wild, unpredictable, bumpy, exciting, infuriating, joyful, exhausting and peaceful experience. I am a “Momma-preneur”. I have always wanted two things: To be a Mommy and to be an Entrepreneur of creativity. It’s not easy and our family and sweet baby girl will always be number one. But I push forward.
I have been a “fighter” since childhood when I realized that I had a choice. I could continue to spell my letters backwards and sink into grade failure and social isolation OR I could thrive and learn a new way of existing in an academic environment. It took a lot of hard work but I adapted to my environment from early education all the way up to college. Yet this journey was everything I described in being a “Momma-preneur”: wild, unpredictable, bumpy, exciting, infuriating, joyful, exhausting and peaceful. And without family support, friends and an innate will to thrive; I know I wouldn’t be where I am now in life.
And so, I often asking myself, what more can I do to “refuel” and take care of myself so that I can be this Momma-preneur to the best of my ability. That is my focus this week. How can I find small moments, for meditation and total relaxation…I have been attending leadership meetings at UCF with amazing, strong, independent women. A common theme I have heard is that it is not “balance” one needs, it is “harmony.” And therefore, I continue to strive for harmony. A thought I would like to leave you with today is , ” If anything can go well, it will.” (one of my favorite quotes)
24 Jan 2014
in ballads, blogger, career, Hope, inspiration, lyrics, music, Writing
Tags: advocacy, disability, disability awareness, empathy, lyrics, self advocacy, speaker, Writing
I am very excited to begin the adventure of writing lyrics about empowerment, freedom, justice, self-advocacy and more. I’m using my own stories which are driving the story-telling of writing personal lyrics. But I am also greatly drawing upon experience from working in the field of community mental health and Disabilities.
From this day onwards, I will be focusing on writing lyrics regarding this topic of justice/equality…as an outlet to release inner frustration and to be a voice of change and empathy for those who are seeking change and empathy.
I will be posting lyrics about this topic and demo’s of the lyrics I create. For now, it will be mostly lyrics until I get around to recording all the songs in my head.
Good night blogger friends,
30 Dec 2013
in ballads, blogger, career, gratitude, Life, lyrics, Singing, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: 2014, Blogger, blogging, disabilities, dreams, lyrics, Music, new years, quirky, voice, Writing
Not that I am counting the minutes, hours or days… 2013 has been pretty great but I am very excited for 2014~
2012 I said good ridden’ to, 2013 was pretty great and now 2014..I can’t help but have higher expectations. It seems like my wishes are being answered. I asked for new opportunities, new doors to open up…they are opening for me. As the old saying goes, “Be careful what you wish for..because it might just happen”.. Or at least I think that is how it goes. It seems like it is all happening at once. So with this New Year, comes a lot of reflection, insight, meditation and trusting my instinct. Also I am working on prioritizing my time better, saying “no”, and focusing on goals which are most important for this year. I know one thing for sure. I love my job in supporting people with disabilities (even though I don’t like the word itself). Also, I feel increasingly in need of music, lyric writing and recording songs. Each year I feel a stronger urge to do so. Music is in my blood. It is my soul and without it, I feel kind of dull. Hmm that rhymes..Happy New Years from one blogger to another blogger!
23 Oct 2013
in blogger, career, Life, music, Writing
Tags: acting, advocating, complexity, cowrite, demo, disabilities, life, Music, recording, Song, support, Writing
It’s been awhile since writing on my blog. Missed you! I missed talking to people I know and those I don’t know. Something about writing is very cathartic.
Anyways, I needed to get some things straightened out so I took a momentary reprieve from discussing music and acting. The complexity of life did not allow for me to solely focus on music and acting. And that is okay.
I have learned that I can have my “cake and eat it too.” Except, the cake may get dry at times and the ice cream may melt and re-freeze. That is life. So I will continue forward on this journey being a forever optimist and continuing to tackle the unexpected.
I’m excited to announce that my friend and I are recording our co-write this weekend. We are looking forward to sharing the demo soon. The other exciting news is that I got a job doing something I am truly passionate about.
What is the job you ask? Advocating and supporting people with various disabilities. I had difficulty typing the word “disability” as I find the word to be disabling. I would rather say helping people with various emotional, behavioral and physical challenges. It seems more empowering this way. Yet, society has emphasized “disabilities”. What I have to say to you Society…is this. Watch out because I am planning to support a team in changing it up.
Live. Love. Create.
22 Aug 2013
in Acting, audition, blogger, career, Hope, Life
Tags: acting, actor, audition, central florida, Happiness, hope
Update: This week I went to an audition for Disney. It was an audition for print job (internet usage).
Very exciting opportunity! The audition was literally ten seconds long. Well, it was “Ten Mississippi’s” if you counted slowly. This may be surprising to some of you newbie auditioner’s. But every audition is different. I walked in and there was a short line that had a high turnover rate. I asked the gentleman in front of me if I could borrow his phone. Why? Because we were informed to use our phone in one of the pictures taken of us. And well, I left my cell in the car. Thankfully, this kind actor gave me his Iphone.
It was my turn. I walked up. Flashed a smile and a hello. I was asked to smile at camera (picture taken). Then I was asked to look at camera and lastly, to laugh at camera. I’m not complaining because it was an easy process.
So I thought I’d start out with an update. And now I’d like to share my thoughts about “Hope and Resilience” by writing a short poem.
HOPE AND RESILIENCE
Take me to a land
Of Hope and dreams.
For here I will stay.
Hope is the leader
And resilience the follower.
There is no resilience.
Hope for a better today
And if the better doesn’t come
You can choose your day
You can choose your way
You can have HOPE again.
24 Jul 2013
in Acting, audition, blogger, career, film, Life, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: acting, belief, feature, film acting, kings gambit, meisner, news anchor, theater
Most of my prior experience in Acting included commercials and theater. Although I truly enjoy acting in commercials and there is nothing quite like the adrenaline rush that occurs during a theatrical performance; I longed to discover film acting. Well, this summer, Film acting was discovered. I took at class called CORE Film at Art Sake Studio. Here I learned basic principles of film acting and how to “meisner”. Since past February, I increased the number of auditions I went out for. I landed a few gigs along the way but mostly I auditioned. This is typical for any actor who is striving to “make it” in the business.
But one thing I discovered along the journey. I changed the way I viewed myself as an actor. Many artists will tell you they feel “fake” like they are not really professional actors/models/dancers/singers etc.. That is because society teaches us that we are only “good enough” when we “make it.” It dawned on me almost a year ago that I needed to see myself as having already “made it.” I truly believed that doors would open if I (1.) took myself more seriously, as a professional actor/singer/writer. and (2.) imagined and acted as if I have already made it.
I can say that doors are opening, slowly but at least they are opening now. In a previous blog, I discussed my excitement about local audition as News Anchor in “King’s Gambit”, a feature film. My latest update is that I booked a role as a News Anchor in this film. We are set to begin shooting film in August. I’m thrilled to be a working actor and to have an opportunity to act with a great cast and crew! Let the fun continue…
Live. Love. Create.
23 Jul 2013
in Acting, blogger, career, film, inspiration, Life, psychology, spirituality, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: actor, artist, creativity, daydreaming, energy, gigs, rejuvenate, rest, restore, spirit, stress, Writing
This is for you. The Artist.
Every artist needs fuel to keep the creative juices flowing. There are many types of stressors and stress can creep up at random. Stress in and of itself can be great fuel. We need a certain amount of “good” stress to push us to our goals and to keep us on our feet. Stress is a burst of energy that basically alerts you on what to do next. There are advantages to stress when it exists in small doses. It can help you meet daily challenges and will motivate you to reach your goals. However, there is the “bad” stress that builds and can become toxic to the mind, body and spirit. As artists, we are especially vulnerable to stress because of our heightened sensitivity. And when I say “sensitivity” I am referring to the ability of artists to tap into their own vulnerabilities and intuition. This is why it’s so important to rest and rejuvenate in order to refuel the creative juices.
Why do I bring this up? I bring this up because my energies are in higher demand due to an increase in scheduled activities. As an actor, “gigs” are often at random and the duration/intensity vary of each job. I began to think about energy and how important it is for me to take time to rest and refuel the energy. I’m the type of person who wants to “go, go, go.” I have always been the “restless girl” in my seat at school. My head was in the clouds daydreaming. But what I believe is this. I have endless bounds of energy and visions of creating something bigger. This I have known from a very early age.
I am finally able to allow myself to fully explore my visions of creating. Yet I have learned from life experiences how to manage stressful situations and how to take care of myself along the way. I’m very grateful to be refueling the creative juices this week, as I am away on vacation. If you cannot take a vacation right now, can you take a mini-vacation? Or perhaps you can take an hour to refuel.
Live. Love. Create.
02 Jul 2013
in blogger, career, gratitude, healing, inspiration, Life, spirituality, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: artist, Blogger, emotion, faith, hope, motion, movement, perseverence, transition, writer
I am in motion
A wave of emotion
I found a way
I can see the end
I finally feel the commotion
For what I have always known
For the unknown
I am in motion, I am in motion
For what I believe in
Because I am only human
In motion again
A steady pace
To the end in sight
Because I can.
I am in motion
I am in motion.
22 Jun 2013
in Acting, blogger, career, film, Florida, gratitude, Life, nashville, Writing
Tags: acting, actor, art sake studio, blue sky production, casting, christy poggi, film class, video
This week began with the usual. And then there was Film Class at Art Sake Studio. This CORE film class opens up the chakras and assists in bringing great truth to acting. It unleashes vulnerability and allows for people to feel safe in sharing and exploring various emotions. This week we continued with Meisner Film games and were fortunate to attend a workshop by Christy Poggi on empathy. Since I am a LMHC (Licensed Mental Health Counselor); I must admit that at first, I wasn’t sure what more I could learn about empathy. Empathy training was a large part of my Master’s program. However; empathy applied to Film Acting is a very different ball game. As a counselor we empathize with clients; however, as a film actor we empathize with the character while being truthful to our own vulnerabilities. As a counselor we are taught boundaries and to stay focused on client, often disregarding our own emotional impulse. This occurs for good reason in therapy. However; in film acting, boundaries are loose for good reason. We are encouraged to take risks with ourselves and actors during scenework. Speaking of risks, leads me to the word FEAR.
I am scared to death (a bit dramatic, yes) of ACTING. I have always been afraid of it yet secretly wanted to play the leading lady on General Hospital. Also, I would secretly want to be Sandra Bullock in all of the romantic comedies. You see, we all have “inner critics” that scream at us right when we feel we can do something. The inner critic often says ” it’s too hard”, ” you aren’t good enough”, “that’s impossible”, “You aren’t smart enough.” etc. But these barriers are imaginary and created, without giving us as a chance to prove the inner critic wrong. I’m thankful to mentors that have told me to not listen to this chatter. Yet, I go into the unknown and I am at times scared ______. You get the idea and can fill in the blank. I feel empowered speaking the truth and this will free me. There is a quote about fear from “The Artist Way” by Julia Cameron.
” It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare; it is because we do not dare that they are difficult.” Seneca
My updates for this week: I was cast in an Infomercial for Hand Hygiene at Dr. P. Phillips Hospital. Blue Sky Production crew based out of Nashville were wonderful folks to work with. They were professional and had a sense of humor, which created ease on the set. It was a long day but well worth it. I actually cried “real tears” during one scene with a young boy (who played my child). I credit my acting class at Art Sake for giving me tools to illicit tears on film. It helped for me to do some breathing exercises, to breath into the emotion. What I am learning is this; Although I fear acting, I’m growing more confident and I attribute this to taking risks. And that’s a wrap!
Enjoy your weekend!
Live. Love. Create.