23 Oct 2013
in blogger, career, Life, music, Writing
Tags: acting, advocating, complexity, cowrite, demo, disabilities, life, Music, recording, Song, support, Writing
It’s been awhile since writing on my blog. Missed you! I missed talking to people I know and those I don’t know. Something about writing is very cathartic.
Anyways, I needed to get some things straightened out so I took a momentary reprieve from discussing music and acting. The complexity of life did not allow for me to solely focus on music and acting. And that is okay.
I have learned that I can have my “cake and eat it too.” Except, the cake may get dry at times and the ice cream may melt and re-freeze. That is life. So I will continue forward on this journey being a forever optimist and continuing to tackle the unexpected.
I’m excited to announce that my friend and I are recording our co-write this weekend. We are looking forward to sharing the demo soon. The other exciting news is that I got a job doing something I am truly passionate about.
What is the job you ask? Advocating and supporting people with various disabilities. I had difficulty typing the word “disability” as I find the word to be disabling. I would rather say helping people with various emotional, behavioral and physical challenges. It seems more empowering this way. Yet, society has emphasized “disabilities”. What I have to say to you Society…is this. Watch out because I am planning to support a team in changing it up.
Live. Love. Create.
22 Aug 2013
in Acting, audition, blogger, career, Hope, Life
Tags: acting, actor, audition, central florida, Happiness, hope
Update: This week I went to an audition for Disney. It was an audition for print job (internet usage).
Very exciting opportunity! The audition was literally ten seconds long. Well, it was “Ten Mississippi’s” if you counted slowly. This may be surprising to some of you newbie auditioner’s. But every audition is different. I walked in and there was a short line that had a high turnover rate. I asked the gentleman in front of me if I could borrow his phone. Why? Because we were informed to use our phone in one of the pictures taken of us. And well, I left my cell in the car. Thankfully, this kind actor gave me his Iphone.
It was my turn. I walked up. Flashed a smile and a hello. I was asked to smile at camera (picture taken). Then I was asked to look at camera and lastly, to laugh at camera. I’m not complaining because it was an easy process.
So I thought I’d start out with an update. And now I’d like to share my thoughts about “Hope and Resilience” by writing a short poem.
HOPE AND RESILIENCE
Take me to a land
Of Hope and dreams.
For here I will stay.
Hope is the leader
And resilience the follower.
There is no resilience.
Hope for a better today
And if the better doesn’t come
You can choose your day
You can choose your way
You can have HOPE again.
24 Jul 2013
in Acting, audition, blogger, career, film, Life, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: acting, belief, feature, film acting, kings gambit, meisner, news anchor, theater
Most of my prior experience in Acting included commercials and theater. Although I truly enjoy acting in commercials and there is nothing quite like the adrenaline rush that occurs during a theatrical performance; I longed to discover film acting. Well, this summer, Film acting was discovered. I took at class called CORE Film at Art Sake Studio. Here I learned basic principles of film acting and how to “meisner”. Since past February, I increased the number of auditions I went out for. I landed a few gigs along the way but mostly I auditioned. This is typical for any actor who is striving to “make it” in the business.
But one thing I discovered along the journey. I changed the way I viewed myself as an actor. Many artists will tell you they feel “fake” like they are not really professional actors/models/dancers/singers etc.. That is because society teaches us that we are only “good enough” when we “make it.” It dawned on me almost a year ago that I needed to see myself as having already “made it.” I truly believed that doors would open if I (1.) took myself more seriously, as a professional actor/singer/writer. and (2.) imagined and acted as if I have already made it.
I can say that doors are opening, slowly but at least they are opening now. In a previous blog, I discussed my excitement about local audition as News Anchor in “King’s Gambit”, a feature film. My latest update is that I booked a role as a News Anchor in this film. We are set to begin shooting film in August. I’m thrilled to be a working actor and to have an opportunity to act with a great cast and crew! Let the fun continue…
Live. Love. Create.
23 Jul 2013
in Acting, blogger, career, film, inspiration, Life, psychology, spirituality, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: actor, artist, creativity, daydreaming, energy, gigs, rejuvenate, rest, restore, spirit, stress, Writing
This is for you. The Artist.
Every artist needs fuel to keep the creative juices flowing. There are many types of stressors and stress can creep up at random. Stress in and of itself can be great fuel. We need a certain amount of “good” stress to push us to our goals and to keep us on our feet. Stress is a burst of energy that basically alerts you on what to do next. There are advantages to stress when it exists in small doses. It can help you meet daily challenges and will motivate you to reach your goals. However, there is the “bad” stress that builds and can become toxic to the mind, body and spirit. As artists, we are especially vulnerable to stress because of our heightened sensitivity. And when I say “sensitivity” I am referring to the ability of artists to tap into their own vulnerabilities and intuition. This is why it’s so important to rest and rejuvenate in order to refuel the creative juices.
Why do I bring this up? I bring this up because my energies are in higher demand due to an increase in scheduled activities. As an actor, “gigs” are often at random and the duration/intensity vary of each job. I began to think about energy and how important it is for me to take time to rest and refuel the energy. I’m the type of person who wants to “go, go, go.” I have always been the “restless girl” in my seat at school. My head was in the clouds daydreaming. But what I believe is this. I have endless bounds of energy and visions of creating something bigger. This I have known from a very early age.
I am finally able to allow myself to fully explore my visions of creating. Yet I have learned from life experiences how to manage stressful situations and how to take care of myself along the way. I’m very grateful to be refueling the creative juices this week, as I am away on vacation. If you cannot take a vacation right now, can you take a mini-vacation? Or perhaps you can take an hour to refuel.
Live. Love. Create.
02 Jul 2013
in blogger, career, gratitude, healing, inspiration, Life, spirituality, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: artist, Blogger, emotion, faith, hope, motion, movement, perseverence, transition, writer
I am in motion
A wave of emotion
I found a way
I can see the end
I finally feel the commotion
For what I have always known
For the unknown
I am in motion, I am in motion
For what I believe in
Because I am only human
In motion again
A steady pace
To the end in sight
Because I can.
I am in motion
I am in motion.
22 Jun 2013
in Acting, blogger, career, film, Florida, gratitude, Life, nashville, Writing
Tags: acting, actor, art sake studio, blue sky production, casting, christy poggi, film class, video
This week began with the usual. And then there was Film Class at Art Sake Studio. This CORE film class opens up the chakras and assists in bringing great truth to acting. It unleashes vulnerability and allows for people to feel safe in sharing and exploring various emotions. This week we continued with Meisner Film games and were fortunate to attend a workshop by Christy Poggi on empathy. Since I am a LMHC (Licensed Mental Health Counselor); I must admit that at first, I wasn’t sure what more I could learn about empathy. Empathy training was a large part of my Master’s program. However; empathy applied to Film Acting is a very different ball game. As a counselor we empathize with clients; however, as a film actor we empathize with the character while being truthful to our own vulnerabilities. As a counselor we are taught boundaries and to stay focused on client, often disregarding our own emotional impulse. This occurs for good reason in therapy. However; in film acting, boundaries are loose for good reason. We are encouraged to take risks with ourselves and actors during scenework. Speaking of risks, leads me to the word FEAR.
I am scared to death (a bit dramatic, yes) of ACTING. I have always been afraid of it yet secretly wanted to play the leading lady on General Hospital. Also, I would secretly want to be Sandra Bullock in all of the romantic comedies. You see, we all have “inner critics” that scream at us right when we feel we can do something. The inner critic often says ” it’s too hard”, ” you aren’t good enough”, “that’s impossible”, “You aren’t smart enough.” etc. But these barriers are imaginary and created, without giving us as a chance to prove the inner critic wrong. I’m thankful to mentors that have told me to not listen to this chatter. Yet, I go into the unknown and I am at times scared ______. You get the idea and can fill in the blank. I feel empowered speaking the truth and this will free me. There is a quote about fear from “The Artist Way” by Julia Cameron.
” It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare; it is because we do not dare that they are difficult.” Seneca
My updates for this week: I was cast in an Infomercial for Hand Hygiene at Dr. P. Phillips Hospital. Blue Sky Production crew based out of Nashville were wonderful folks to work with. They were professional and had a sense of humor, which created ease on the set. It was a long day but well worth it. I actually cried “real tears” during one scene with a young boy (who played my child). I credit my acting class at Art Sake for giving me tools to illicit tears on film. It helped for me to do some breathing exercises, to breath into the emotion. What I am learning is this; Although I fear acting, I’m growing more confident and I attribute this to taking risks. And that’s a wrap!
Enjoy your weekend!
Live. Love. Create.
30 May 2013
in Acting, audition, blogger, career, co writing, healing, inspiration, lyrics, Mother, music, Singing, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: acting, actor, art, artist, arts sake, class, film, friends, guided imagery, hope for harmony, journey, mindfulness, monologue
You are probably singing right now…”One moment in time….” but I seriously meant ” One Moment at a Time” as post title. Why? Because all it takes is one moment in time to realize our true potential. This Tuesday marked the 3rd week of Core Film Class at Art Sake’s Studio. I have been enjoying the heck out of this class. I am learning to trust my impulses in acting and to be more “in the moment”.
This week I am realizing that doors continue to open. I feel there is limitless possibilities and potential in our world. Sometimes the doors that open are right in front of our eyes, and we fail to notice for one reason or another. So that is where “mindfulness” comes in. When I slow my mind down and focus on the emotions, what is bubbling up under the surface; the answers begin to appear. So I encourage you to do the same. Go to Google and click on “Guided Imagery”, meditations or take a local yoga class. It really does make a significant different on your day while also bringing clarity to what is bubbling up.
This week was exciting! Stay tuned, as my friend Georgia and I just began pre production on our co-write. We will be posting our new song this summer. Also, I will be an extra in a local Indie film called ” Hope for Harmony” to be taped this upcoming week.
Not much more to say, as its Friday “Eve”. We are all tired, right? Time to renew, repair and reboot for the next week.
Live. Love. Create.
20 May 2013
in Acting, audition, blogger, career, co writing, gratitude, inspiration, Life, Mother, movie, music, Singing, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: act, acting, art sake, artists way, audition, casting, co write, create, creative, film, filming, full sail, independent, julia cameron, lyricist, movie, side, Singing, studio, writer
This week was a journey. It was a journey filled with many emotions. Let’s just cut to the chase, shall we? So what is the latest on my artistic pursuit of creative rebellion? Well, lets see I started film class last week at Art Sake Studio. Check it out at http://www.art-sake.com/art-sake.com/Home.html. The class rocks and I already feel like I am learning more than I could imagine from one class. The class is inspired by one of my favorite author’s Julia Cameron (author of book ” The Artist Way”). This class encourages its patrons to attend as many auditions as possible in order to unleash the inner artist and to encourage personal growth. So this Saturday, I went to Full Sail University’s open casting call for local films. I was expecting to audition for two movies. However; when I arrived there was a long table set up with about six creative projects including video game auditions. There was a moment of panic followed by sheer excitement. I went down the aisle and signed up for each casting available. There I sat with five clipboards filled with information about each casting, followed by sides. “Sides” refers to the specific set of lines from the script of an acting project that your child (or you) must learn prior to an audition. It took some time to organize all the paperwork, sign the releases and remember which “Sides” belonged to the appropriate paperwork. I thought, ”If I can figure out how to organize this mess, it’s half the battle.”
I highly recommend auditioning at Full Sail. The staff was very friendly and the casting directors were also friendly, approachable, and eager to get the best shot. The directors were professional and provided feedback. Check out Full Sail’s site at http://www.myspace.com/fullsailcasting. I was there from 3 pm until 6:30 pm auditioning for five projects. It was a long wait but worth it. Why? Because I left with increased confidence. I felt great about the performances I gave and the courage it took to show up. So I encourage you to do the same. Find the courage within to do something you’ve always wanted to do and do it, without question.
Film business has taken the driver’s seat this week. So last night I changed it up by meeting with a friend and co-writer to solidify our song and to make arrangements to record in the upcoming week. Cannot wait to share with you! Mostly, I am feeling very grateful for the support of my husband and family which allows me to go on these auditions. Our daughter Olivia Daisy always inspires and her smile pushes me onward.
It’s been a week’s journey. It feels like this is really happening. That I am becoming the artist I always wanted to be.
Live. Love. Create.
10 May 2013
in audition, Baby, blogger, career, child, gratitude, inspiration, Life, lyrics, Mother, music, print model, Singing, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: austins coffee, catalog, change, coffee shop, credo coffee, guitar, model, Music, scholastic book, Singer, Songwriter, unexpected
After my last blog, I was filled with excitement to sing at Credo Coffee shop. I had been rehearsing vocal and guitar for over a week in order to perform there for what would be my 2nd time. The guitar was becoming my friend and I let go of my grudge against it. You see the guitar and I have a “love/hate” relationship. But recently I decided to give it another try on my terms. So when my baby girl fell asleep and with my husband’s support; I practiced chords on guitar and strummed along to my original tunes. I felt fairly confident that I was ready to showcase my original songs, even if my guitar skills were not perfect. However, sometimes things happen for a reason. The weekend prior to open mic, the guitar was not tuned. I tried tuning it several times, using different tuning methods but was not successful. I was losing hope and wondered if the guitar was broken. But really I felt like the broken one because I was so disappointed. What I really wanted was the last two days (weekend) to rehearse. And well with a baby, various creative endeavors and life; it just didn’t happen. With that being said, I am glad it did not. And thankfully, the guitar was fixed. It turned out that only ONE STRING was out of tune. But due to limited time and my desire to perform at my best; I chose to sing at next open mic. I’m thinking about trying out Austin’s Coffee Shop next week. Sometimes I am too hard on myself. One missed open mic is nothing in grand scheme of life. The important thing is that I am playing the guitar and not giving up on this creative growth.
Sometimes the unexpected actually turns out to be a great thing! So after my disappointment, I set my mind on the next creative goals. And with a tuned guitar, I felt that opportunities were endless. Then I got a phone call from my agent. She wanted to submit me as print model for Scholastic Books catalog. I was excited and of course said “Yes!”. I booked the job and arrived at Scholastic Books on Thursday. It was such a positive experience and the team of artists, directors and photographer were professional. This is another experience that reaffirmed my love of entertainment field. I enjoy print modeling as much as acting and singing.
It just goes to show you that sometimes change is a GREAT thing and that unexpectancies can be GREAT. Here are some quotes that I stumbled upon when looking up “unexpectancies, change.”
“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” -Maria Robinson
“Today is the first day of the rest of your life.” -Anonymous
“All great changes are preceded by chaos.” -Deepak Chopra
“Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.” -C.S. Lewis
“Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” -Marilyn Monroe
“If what you’re doing is not your passion, you have nothing to lose.” Unknown
Be Well and have a fantastic weekend!
30 Apr 2013
in blogger, career, healing, health, inspiration, Life, Mother, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: acceptance, daydreaming, dreams, gratitude, inspiration, janet jackson, mental health, mindfulness, quotes, rasheed ogunlaru, self acceptance, shannon alder
Lately the word “Acceptance” has been on my mind. I hardly feel like writing tonight as I am one busy mommy and entrepreneur these days. But I miss writing to you, my blogger friends. So yesterday I started pondering over how I am feeling, as many artists do. The words that popped up in my mind are “gratitude and acceptance”. As I have written in previous blogs; I have been feeling immense gratitude for the people, things and places that fill up my heart and mind. The book “The Magic” has inspired me like never before. However, the word “Acceptance” took me by surprise.
So I asked myself, “Where is this word coming from?” The answer: I accept who I am today, not tomorrow. I have spent a great deal of time planning my future and daydreaming. I’m a big believer in futuristic thinking but sometimes people get stuck in either the past or future. I began to feel stuck in the future, not knowing how to be present minded. Still-I am working on being more mindful each day.
The future is now. As I made plans for the future; I also began to feel stuck in the mindset of ”why aren’t my dreams happening sooner? and I will be happy when….” How many of you have felt this way? So I realized I have been living for the future. Although I have been making strides towards my goals of being an actor, singer and writer; it was never good enough. So I asked myself, ” What can I do now to be happy?” What can I do, while pursuing my dreams that will be a “muse” to my creative ideas?
The entrepreneur in me has come up with a vision. I look forward to sharing this plan with you, as soon as it is copyrighted.=) So back to the word “Acceptance.” I’m learning to accept that I am always going to be the “type” to want a job that is spontaneous, creative and in a healthy, happy environment. After browsing the internet about the word “Acceptance.”, I found a few quotes that inspired me and would like to share with you tonight.
“To be given permission to be confused — and remain confused — for as long as it takes would have been a huge gift.”
― Janet Jackson, True You: A Journey to Finding and Loving Yourself
“In life one has a choice to take one of two paths: to wait for some special day – or to celebrate each special day.”
― Rasheed Ogunlaru
The price tag that you put on your soul will determine the people and circumstances in which you find yourself.”
― Shannon L. Alder
With Gratitude and Acceptance,